seeking33
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Ok, I'll come right out and say I'm an atheist, with a distinctive nihilistic bent. I'm young, only a college student, I have my whole life ahead of me and have yet to experience many things, but I fail to see the ultimate purpose of life, "why" we're here, and for years cannot bring myself to believe that some Deity exists and is watching over humankind, or that some supernatural "afterlife" exists in which we'll all be reunited with friends and loved ones and live happily ever after. I was raised Catholic, participated actively in church for years, but something happened to change my way of thinking. When I entered college, a close friend of mine was murdered and it seemed to've been the catalyst for the whole de-conversion process. That, and being exposed to different philosophies, scientific theories, etc. has led me to feel that anything to do with religion or gods is pure fantasy. Of course it would be nice if a loving, heavenly being watched over us and guided our lives, and that at the end of a hard, difficult life on Earth we all go on to some kind of afterlife instead of rotting in the ground--but I've come to the conclusion that if it sounds too good to be true, it probably is.
I've been wondering if there is something wrong with me, ever since the tragedy occured. I've heard people say that atheists are mentally ill, that since they don't believe in God, they must not believe in anything bigger and higher than themselves, and they're focused on themselves to the point of psychopathy! This is definitely not me. I don't put myself in a position to be akin to a god. This is blatantly false of other atheists I've spoken to, as well. They are for the most part a very intelligent group who see the evils of religious extremism and dogmatism. For the most part they seek to find ways to make the human condition better by studying the various sciences.
So tell me, is this a sign of mental illness? What are the benefits (if any) of being "spiritual"? What should I do?
I've been wondering if there is something wrong with me, ever since the tragedy occured. I've heard people say that atheists are mentally ill, that since they don't believe in God, they must not believe in anything bigger and higher than themselves, and they're focused on themselves to the point of psychopathy! This is definitely not me. I don't put myself in a position to be akin to a god. This is blatantly false of other atheists I've spoken to, as well. They are for the most part a very intelligent group who see the evils of religious extremism and dogmatism. For the most part they seek to find ways to make the human condition better by studying the various sciences.
So tell me, is this a sign of mental illness? What are the benefits (if any) of being "spiritual"? What should I do?