BluMac81
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So today I saw my psychiatrist and we talked about the current pill regiment. As some of you know, I was on Xanax 6mg/day at first with this VA doctor, and suddenly ran out of it, thought nothing of it, only to experience this horrible withdrawl which will forever haunt me. After that expeirence I told him I want off of Xanax, and I'll be tapering off 1mg a week. Well, I got down to about 1.5mg a day, then a move happened, then a new school semester started, then financial problems occured, then heated fights with my roommate popped up, and I found myself back at 6mg a day, usually in two sets of 3mg doses (before anxiety-provoking events.)
Now, I called my psychiatrist immediately when I noticed I was taking 6mg a day and not 4mg as perscribed, and he immeidately upped my dosage to that 6mg a day with two sets of 3mg twice a day. I asked him today, "Is this safe?", he said yes and that he has several clients who take benzos in this amount for life, with no ill effects (other than withdrawl if you run out). So I figure, why not? This drug, Xanax, and well, any other benzo, is the only psych drug that has ever helped me. It has helped me get through first days of school at college, firsts of many things, helped me simply get out into the real world and enjoy life, and without it most likely I would be locking myself away in my room the majority of the time due to social phobia.
Only thing as of now that I worry about is if I run out of Xanax, cause I know how bad withdrawl can get. And no, I can't take it on an as-needed basis because, lets say, I have four anxiety-provoking days in a row in which I take 6mg/day, and then two non-anxiety provoking days in which I take 0mg. Withdrawl will occur, thus I have to stay on said drug to the exact amount perscribed daily even if I am not feeling anxious or facing an anxiety provoking incident. I also wonder.... and my doc told me nothing about this, about the long-term effects of 6mg/day benzo intake? What will I be like in 10 years? In 20? In 30? In 40? Will it make me senile in my old age or something?
And I'm sorry but Prozac, only the, I dunno, 12th anti-depressant I've tried did nothing but give me negative side effects, hence I am finished with them and will be focusing instead on DBT therapy with my psycologist, which she has introduced to me recently, and after reading the therapy overview, I find it fits my condition perfectly.
Just wondering about your thoughts on all this
Now, I called my psychiatrist immediately when I noticed I was taking 6mg a day and not 4mg as perscribed, and he immeidately upped my dosage to that 6mg a day with two sets of 3mg twice a day. I asked him today, "Is this safe?", he said yes and that he has several clients who take benzos in this amount for life, with no ill effects (other than withdrawl if you run out). So I figure, why not? This drug, Xanax, and well, any other benzo, is the only psych drug that has ever helped me. It has helped me get through first days of school at college, firsts of many things, helped me simply get out into the real world and enjoy life, and without it most likely I would be locking myself away in my room the majority of the time due to social phobia.
Only thing as of now that I worry about is if I run out of Xanax, cause I know how bad withdrawl can get. And no, I can't take it on an as-needed basis because, lets say, I have four anxiety-provoking days in a row in which I take 6mg/day, and then two non-anxiety provoking days in which I take 0mg. Withdrawl will occur, thus I have to stay on said drug to the exact amount perscribed daily even if I am not feeling anxious or facing an anxiety provoking incident. I also wonder.... and my doc told me nothing about this, about the long-term effects of 6mg/day benzo intake? What will I be like in 10 years? In 20? In 30? In 40? Will it make me senile in my old age or something?
And I'm sorry but Prozac, only the, I dunno, 12th anti-depressant I've tried did nothing but give me negative side effects, hence I am finished with them and will be focusing instead on DBT therapy with my psycologist, which she has introduced to me recently, and after reading the therapy overview, I find it fits my condition perfectly.
Just wondering about your thoughts on all this