healthbound
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This is a continuation from this thread.
Well, if it is then the rambling might be too ----watch out! Soon you'll be writing 3-page replies like me, hahaha!is this contagious?
OK...I wanted to add an update about how I'm doing, but felt like I was hijacking the other thread, so I started this one
The more I am connected to the reality of what I'm doing to myself --- how hard I am being on myself --- how much I am hurting myself --- it makes it more and more difficult for me to continue. I see it as extremely similar to self injury. Or at least it is in my case.
To shut my emotions or thoughts up and to punish or hurt myself. Eventually, I'd like to use it to nourish myself though.
I'm reminded of how much I've isolated and how distant I keep people. For some reason, today I was aware of how hard I work to keep myself from connecting with people.