Breathe

[forgetmenot]

trying hard to breath um trying to keep me from falling apart dam tears i hate this. There is no reason for this no reason for this weakness . I have to get control back sorry breath just breath right. Why so much self hate sorry i will be okay self harm won't fix anything right let it be.

 

[Jazzey]

Re: breath

No, self-harm won't fix anything. Can you find something to distract yourself a little bit Violet? A warm bath? Something that is 'tactile' - I find that it helps me reduce the thoughts. Like knitting, painting, cooking something special - something that uses your hands....

 

[forgetmenot]

Re: breath

Im trying to breath catch my breath slow my breathing down I don't know whats wrong with me Jazzey
im okay really sorry um i think i need to just go get a bath or something the feeling will go away soon I hate me like this i hate me so much but ill be o kay don't worry okay sorry

 

[Jazzey]

Re: breath

Stop apologizing. A lot of us have been there Violet. :hug::hug: For me, anxiety really beats me up sometimes.

For now, can you do something physical? I find that it helps. Or, go the other way and force yourself to lay down and do some relaxation exercises or take a bath.

You'll be ok, Violet. :hug::hug:

 

[forgetmenot]

Re: breath

deep breathing has me calmer now my thoughts are slower this was bad i don't like this emotion but i am calmer will go take bath now thanks for being here and talking to me okay dam emotions im okay now thanks warm bath next thanks Jazzey i think i am thinking too much again. My anniversary is tommorrow and i am not up for it really I didn't even buy him a card I feel bad but i just don't want to give any wrong messages. 24 yrs married but i can't be there for him just friends He is trying so hard bought me flowers today i told him don't I will be okay now deal with tomorrow tomorrow

 

[Jazzey]

I'm happy to hear that you're feeling better Violet.

Happy Anniversary tomorrow...There are other ways to celebrate that anniversary besides the card. Even if, for the time being, you can only consider him a friend. :hug::hug:

 

[forgetmenot]

Your right i will invite my son and his wife and my daughter and sister and we will go to supper all of us Keep it as a family that would be good a family dinner that will make everyone happy.

 

[Murray]

I am so glad that you are feeling better now. A family dinner together sounds like a great way to celebrate the day.

 

[Jazzey]

It really does, Violet. I agree with Murray. It's a nice way to celebrate your anniversary.

 

[forgetmenot]

Thanks he thinks a good idea too he gave me a nice card with a beach on it We used to walk on the beach all the time oh maybe we might do that today with the daughter things will be okay thanks

 

[Murray]

A nice walk together on the beach sounds fabulous, especially this time of year. I hope you have a wonderful, relaxing and enjoyable day.