braveheart
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The bullying I experienced, mobbing from a group of 20+ girls in my year group over a period of 10 years, day in day out, hurt me.
Sometimes I was assaulted physically.
But all the time emotionally.
Things thrown at me.
Ink flicked over my shirt.
Hit on my back with a chalky wooden backed board rubber.
My things hidden.
Being called spas, among other things.
It hurts. I feel so sad.
They made me feel like a nobody, noone. Not worth caring about. A piece of garbage. Just an object to be ridiculed and laughed at.
Teachers did NOTHING.
They ignored it all.
And so I became voiceless. So my voice often doesn't feel like my own.
Dissociation. Depersonalisation. Agitation. Hyper-Vigilance. Depression. Panic attacks. Low self esteem. Extreme social anxiety. Irritability. Avoidance.
All caused by bullying.
And I'm gradually healing all these symptoms. Slowly but surely.
I was emotionally abused and emotionally neglected at home, too.
I believe bullying can be peer abuse.
I'm close to tears as I type this.
I cried a lot in therapy today.
My therapist is helping me break through the steel door holding my emotions in.
Back then I had no voice, no sense of my right to exist.
And it aches with a raw painful ache in my chest.
I really need validation and reassurance right now. Please.
Sometimes I was assaulted physically.
But all the time emotionally.
Things thrown at me.
Ink flicked over my shirt.
Hit on my back with a chalky wooden backed board rubber.
My things hidden.
Being called spas, among other things.
It hurts. I feel so sad.
They made me feel like a nobody, noone. Not worth caring about. A piece of garbage. Just an object to be ridiculed and laughed at.
Teachers did NOTHING.
They ignored it all.
And so I became voiceless. So my voice often doesn't feel like my own.
Dissociation. Depersonalisation. Agitation. Hyper-Vigilance. Depression. Panic attacks. Low self esteem. Extreme social anxiety. Irritability. Avoidance.
All caused by bullying.
And I'm gradually healing all these symptoms. Slowly but surely.
I was emotionally abused and emotionally neglected at home, too.
I believe bullying can be peer abuse.
I'm close to tears as I type this.
I cried a lot in therapy today.
My therapist is helping me break through the steel door holding my emotions in.
Back then I had no voice, no sense of my right to exist.
And it aches with a raw painful ache in my chest.
I really need validation and reassurance right now. Please.