But mama said...can't hurry love

[Eye Stigmata]

It's been just over a month since my boyfriend broke up with me...I know this may sound so ridiculous to many of you, but I need to get it off my chest. I can't stop thinking about him. I think he was the first boy I ever actually truly fell in love with. I still love him...even after all the hurtful things that happened at the end of our relationship. Does this happen to other people?

They say you never stop loving your first love....please tell me that isn't true. My heart still aches for him...and more than anything I wish we had never broken up. Maybe it's just my personal fear that I will never find love again. But what if I'm right? What IF that were it for me...
This probably just sounds crazy...

Currently I've just entered a new relationship, nothing fancy or anything, I wouldn't even consider him a boyfriend yet, so I guess in proper terms I've just started "seeing" someone. Every time I'm with him...I compare everything about him, to my previous boyfriend. Why do I automatically look for similar traits, or get frustrated when he does things differently than my previous boyfriend? It's not that I show my emotion about this or say anything....but part of me is just looking for the things I loved about my previous boyfriend...

I'm scared to do anything sexually with him...and I don't want to for a while...but my last relationship was perfect in that aspect...he was so respectful of me and my body and he was so kind and...patient. He didn't make me do anything I wasn't comfortable doing or ready for, and when I said no it was no, and no questions asked. He was perfect....I guess I'm just scared I won't find that ever again. He really helped heal me after being raped...made me realize that not every guy was going to do that.

I know that he is happy now in a new relationship...and with me being half way across the country...I don't really blame him. But I'm also really jealous...not of him being happy....but because some other girl gets to have all his wonderful qualities, and may not even really appreciate all the things about him that make him so wonderful.....ugh!! :hissyfit:

 

[emofree]

this is so true that first love never dies but slowly moving on ... I have my first relationship when I was still in college we went well for 4 years. And after that 4 years suddenly she left me no communication at all. and until i found out on one of her older social networking site that she already has some one. My mind went crashing down the drain. I never talk to her and I moved on already. It took a lot of years to fully subside your first love. And my mom said that you can't hurry love love is there and it is waiting for the right moment at the right time and at the right person.