I have read each posting over and over, embarrassment is a heavy issue with me, not able to provide at the level I know I am capable of is not good. I spoke to my wife about the postings and she wants to talk about visiting a counselor asap. We spoke last night for the first time as partners. I want to protect her and fail to accept that we are partners.
I have not lied to her about anything other than finances all related to employment.
I'll continue use of this board regardless of situation with us.