kelsischanging
Member
I know the truth, and the truth is that I need to stop cutting. I am a very logical person, and I know that cutting is not logical. How can making permenant scars help me feel better....how can physical pain help me when I'm in deep emotional pain. I know cutting is not an effective coping mechanism or else I wouldn't need to keep cutting for the same reasons...I know all of this, but i'm not sure I can stop....why??...because I'm to afraid. What happens if I'm at school and I start to feel stressed or overwhelmed...What happens when my mom and I get into one of our marathon screaming matches...what happens when someone makes a hurtful comment...what happens when I have one of those days when I wake up and don't want to get out of bed...what do I turn to....I've tried distraction, but distraction is not a solution only a temporary avoidance of the issues....I'm a senior in high school and next fall I'll be going away to college and I know that if I don't have this at least semi under control by that time disaster could strike in my life to the point of me doing something stupid and ending up dead....I know the truth and the truth is that this isn't working in my life....now I just need to know how to let go of that fear....
Kelsey
Kelsey