healthbound
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Is there a difference between an eating disorder and an addiction to food (or an overeater)?
Thanks in advance
Thanks in advance
I should probably point out that I've used various tactics (or substances) over the years to...to...to....hm...distract, divert, punish, avoid etc.
Anyway, I'm back to struggling with food again.
I am feeling very out of control and very ashamed of my eating behaviors. It's really bothering me.
I notice I feel angry about struggling with a substance I HAVE TO consume on a daily basis. I hate food. Well, I hate my struggle with it.
I think about it ALL the time.
I'm either figuring out how I will get it and eat it without them knowing or how I can't stand not having it or how guilty I feel for having just eaten it.
And while I write this, I feel incredible embarrassment, shame and guilt. I feel stupid. Stupid for not being able to get a handle on it and stupid cause it's FOOD! It's embarrassing that I can't control it.
I just know I have a serious struggle with food and I can't seem to get a handle on it. Urgh.