Hello all,
This is bothering me now really bad. I have a dog since last Saturday and again I experience the same thing what I experience in my contacts with people: I tend to give all and then withdraw myself because I cannot keep doing that.
Important is to tell that I only have this with the people I feel dependent on.
It is like I lose myself when I sense somebody else wants me to be very enthousiastic or think I should act that way. I have no clue what I actually want at that moment.
If you don't mind I stick to the experiences with my dog now, because this is what is bothering me and typical for my behavior.
When I got out of bed this afternoon I felt energetic. My dog greeted me enthousiastically and I cherished her and played with her. Later on I thought: hmmmzzz because before I went to sleep I felt so differently.
Anyway, we got back from a walk and then I felt like I wanted to use the computer and be alone. I have that many times during the day that I want to be alone. Or just the thought that my dog is not looking for me is a relief. It's a struggle here more or less for me.
I tend to open my heart completely and give very much and then I soon back out because I need to be alone. Now I am afraid I will hurt my dog with this. I don't want to. I have also had this numerous times with people, numerous times. Giving myself completely and then get in panic or just have the feeling that I need to be alone to feel normal again.
What am I actually doing...? Why...? Is there a way that I can make this be less extreme?
This is bothering me now really bad. I have a dog since last Saturday and again I experience the same thing what I experience in my contacts with people: I tend to give all and then withdraw myself because I cannot keep doing that.
Important is to tell that I only have this with the people I feel dependent on.
It is like I lose myself when I sense somebody else wants me to be very enthousiastic or think I should act that way. I have no clue what I actually want at that moment.
If you don't mind I stick to the experiences with my dog now, because this is what is bothering me and typical for my behavior.
When I got out of bed this afternoon I felt energetic. My dog greeted me enthousiastically and I cherished her and played with her. Later on I thought: hmmmzzz because before I went to sleep I felt so differently.
Anyway, we got back from a walk and then I felt like I wanted to use the computer and be alone. I have that many times during the day that I want to be alone. Or just the thought that my dog is not looking for me is a relief. It's a struggle here more or less for me.
I tend to open my heart completely and give very much and then I soon back out because I need to be alone. Now I am afraid I will hurt my dog with this. I don't want to. I have also had this numerous times with people, numerous times. Giving myself completely and then get in panic or just have the feeling that I need to be alone to feel normal again.
What am I actually doing...? Why...? Is there a way that I can make this be less extreme?