Ashley-Kate
MVP
hello,
it's been a while. I am slowly recovering came to the conclusion that every effort i thought i was doing before was nothing compared to the real fight , really putting all of me in it. I did in-patient and then day-hospital, while in that treatment i entered a specialized treatment for PTSD finished that in march. I went back to my old therapist and that helped a great deal. I am still not perfect i still have restrictive moments and am not at 100% in my meal plan. I decided to in-spite of that end the eating disorder treatment because i am so much better than i was a year ago i felt the rest is mostly up to me and really all about what i am willing to do. I went back to work after a 2 year medical leave of absence changed jobs to a much more satisfying and secure position. Everything changed in the last couple of months. I still have my behaviors but i try to also be more social do things that before my eating disorder prevented me to do. I go out with friends sometimes even out for diner or meals. Things shifted for me in the last months i finally realized what i want and what i need to reach those goals. My boyfriend and i are thinking about kids some day soon when i will be completing my meal plan. things were doing great and they still are but obstacles come hit you at the moment when you think you can beat everything and they are there to test you i guess at least i am trying to convince myself of that. I was in a bike accident a week and a half ago on my way to work I hurt pretty much everything on the left side of my body but spared my head. I spent 2 days in the hospital and since then have basically been bed-ridden. having everybody basically blame my bridal bones on me and my bad nutrition makes me feel horrible on top of that no bike no walking no running no exercise at all. I trying to keep it together trying not to lose my mind its really hard. The emergency dr. perscribed morphine for the pain mixed with my other meds for depression and anxiety not really sure it made for a perfect mix my eating disorder is freaking out not being able to move is not helping with eating regularly its just so hard to remain positive. i don't get why it just doesn't quit.
ashley
it's been a while. I am slowly recovering came to the conclusion that every effort i thought i was doing before was nothing compared to the real fight , really putting all of me in it. I did in-patient and then day-hospital, while in that treatment i entered a specialized treatment for PTSD finished that in march. I went back to my old therapist and that helped a great deal. I am still not perfect i still have restrictive moments and am not at 100% in my meal plan. I decided to in-spite of that end the eating disorder treatment because i am so much better than i was a year ago i felt the rest is mostly up to me and really all about what i am willing to do. I went back to work after a 2 year medical leave of absence changed jobs to a much more satisfying and secure position. Everything changed in the last couple of months. I still have my behaviors but i try to also be more social do things that before my eating disorder prevented me to do. I go out with friends sometimes even out for diner or meals. Things shifted for me in the last months i finally realized what i want and what i need to reach those goals. My boyfriend and i are thinking about kids some day soon when i will be completing my meal plan. things were doing great and they still are but obstacles come hit you at the moment when you think you can beat everything and they are there to test you i guess at least i am trying to convince myself of that. I was in a bike accident a week and a half ago on my way to work I hurt pretty much everything on the left side of my body but spared my head. I spent 2 days in the hospital and since then have basically been bed-ridden. having everybody basically blame my bridal bones on me and my bad nutrition makes me feel horrible on top of that no bike no walking no running no exercise at all. I trying to keep it together trying not to lose my mind its really hard. The emergency dr. perscribed morphine for the pain mixed with my other meds for depression and anxiety not really sure it made for a perfect mix my eating disorder is freaking out not being able to move is not helping with eating regularly its just so hard to remain positive. i don't get why it just doesn't quit.
ashley
even if it is just a smoothie or something to nibble on that you like. I think it is very rude for anyone to put blame on someone when they are having difficulties so please do not listen to that. Take good care of you.
