thephoenix
Member
As I find myself back in and out of depression and anxiety, I find myself battling familiar demons and encountering old fears.
I feel that for me the disease is constantly shifting and changing in order to keep my thoughts and thinking as upsetting as possible. Maybe an example will help explain what I mean.
I can read books about depression and anxiety and on some level know that what I am experiencing will pass and that I've recovered from it numerous times before. The problem is that my mind works against me convincing me this time is more severe, this time I really am going to go crazy, this time treatment won't work, this time there will be no recovery.
Its ironic that the problem solving skills that make me a good student and employee are now working against me to keep me feeling miserable. My ability to analyze an issue from multiple angles simultaneously and envision multiple outcomes is causing me a great amount of stress and strain when applied to my depression.
I really am struggling and I've made arrangements to get the help I need, all I can do now is wait and try to hold on to my sanity until the cavalry arrives.
I feel that for me the disease is constantly shifting and changing in order to keep my thoughts and thinking as upsetting as possible. Maybe an example will help explain what I mean.
I can read books about depression and anxiety and on some level know that what I am experiencing will pass and that I've recovered from it numerous times before. The problem is that my mind works against me convincing me this time is more severe, this time I really am going to go crazy, this time treatment won't work, this time there will be no recovery.
Its ironic that the problem solving skills that make me a good student and employee are now working against me to keep me feeling miserable. My ability to analyze an issue from multiple angles simultaneously and envision multiple outcomes is causing me a great amount of stress and strain when applied to my depression.
I really am struggling and I've made arrangements to get the help I need, all I can do now is wait and try to hold on to my sanity until the cavalry arrives.