HotthenCold
Member
Hello,
this is as much a venting post as anything but here goes...
I was in a very positive place mentally for most of today, being productive, taking responsibility for my state of mind and my life. Until some jerk started blowing kisses to my girlfriend while he was driving next to us.
It brought up a bunch of insecurity issues I have around relationships and my sense of manhood.
It makes me really angry and I start to worry about the future possibility of someone hitting on my girlfriend in public and trying to belittle me, and then me not having the courage to stand up to them.
I'm not saying I want to fight, I know that stupid. And I know I should just be happy that my girlfriend is beautiful and has chosen me, but insecurity over being left/cheated on/shamed by another man "besting" me when it comes to my girlfriend is one of my biggest mental issues.
In other words, I'm jealous. I've made a lot of progress with jealousy and anger, but this kind of arrogant rude behaviour drags me down so far in to the mud and I hate wasting energy even thinking about it.
Not sure what I'm looking for in terms of advice here. Maybe someone knows a strategy for overcoming this kind of insecurity? How can i shrug it off and not start to think of myself as weak and worry that eventually this weakness will be taken advantage of?
I don't even know how I would react if my nightmare scenario happened because sometimes I'm meak and sometimes I'm very confrontational when someone crosses me like this.
Bah, why can't people just have more respect for one another and quit having such big freaking egos? I don't want to hate because I know they're not 100% bad but it just irks me so much...
thanks for reading
this is as much a venting post as anything but here goes...
I was in a very positive place mentally for most of today, being productive, taking responsibility for my state of mind and my life. Until some jerk started blowing kisses to my girlfriend while he was driving next to us.
It brought up a bunch of insecurity issues I have around relationships and my sense of manhood.
It makes me really angry and I start to worry about the future possibility of someone hitting on my girlfriend in public and trying to belittle me, and then me not having the courage to stand up to them.
I'm not saying I want to fight, I know that stupid. And I know I should just be happy that my girlfriend is beautiful and has chosen me, but insecurity over being left/cheated on/shamed by another man "besting" me when it comes to my girlfriend is one of my biggest mental issues.
In other words, I'm jealous. I've made a lot of progress with jealousy and anger, but this kind of arrogant rude behaviour drags me down so far in to the mud and I hate wasting energy even thinking about it.
Not sure what I'm looking for in terms of advice here. Maybe someone knows a strategy for overcoming this kind of insecurity? How can i shrug it off and not start to think of myself as weak and worry that eventually this weakness will be taken advantage of?
I don't even know how I would react if my nightmare scenario happened because sometimes I'm meak and sometimes I'm very confrontational when someone crosses me like this.
Bah, why can't people just have more respect for one another and quit having such big freaking egos? I don't want to hate because I know they're not 100% bad but it just irks me so much...
thanks for reading
