Fighting suicidal ideation

[Into The Light]

it's inertia then, that's a tough one to go against too. you need to break that cycle, which is really hard at first, but very well worth it.

do you have a calendar you use? maybe you could buy some stickers and for each day that you take your medication put a sticker on the calendar. it may sound like it's for kids but it does work. with each sticker you add you get motivated to add another.

edit: just had another thought. usually when i missed a dose on purpose and i would feel worse (including increased suicidal thinking) i would then take my dose anyway. so maybe try to do that as well. the thoughts are a sign you need the medication.

 

[Charity]

...and maybe there could be a reward system involved? Like, when you've managed to get stickers on x days in a row with no missed days, you treat yourself to (fill in the blank)?

 

[Jazzey]

Thank you ITL. I've actually set them prominently in my home so there right there staring at me all the time. And I've also doubled the dosage as of yesterday (doctor recommended). But I think you're bang on - I'm taking it as an indication that my dosage was too low at 20mg...So now, I'm crossing my fingers that I'll notice a difference, that I'll start to care.

And I may still try the sticker idea - put it in my daily agenda as a little treat to myself.

 

[Jazzey]

...and maybe there could be a reward system involved? Like, when you've managed to get stickers on x days in a row with no missed days, you treat yourself to (fill in the blank)?

I'd just like to feel like me again - the happy version of me. That person used to enjoy a lot of activities - I think that would be my reward.

 

[Charity]

Maybe taking your medicine might help, poke poke...

 

[Jazzey]

:lol: What a novel idea? :lol: I may give this a go

 

[Always Changing]

I'd just like to feel like me again - the happy version of me.

You will be Jazzey, time and patience will reap it's rewards.

(I say this also as a reminder to myself)