Eye Stigmata
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So now that I've done my first EMDR session...I thought I would share with everyone how it went and what I thought about it.
We started with talking about a sentance/phrase that described how I felt while I was being raped, and I chose basically that I felt I deserved to die/ I must be such a horrible person, if I deserve this then I deserve to be dead.
So then, you close your eyes and try to get really deep into that moment when it's happenening...( I found this difficult at first because I was very uncomfortable, but after about 5 mins of relaxing and letting myself trust my therpist it was ok). You picture yourself on a train, or in a theatre as if your watching this all happen...and you can change anything you want...its like your the director of the movie, if you don't like whats happenening you can shift it in your mind...long story short, I imagined my mom coming into the basement and rescuing me... Once I was done the EMDR, my anxiety was much lower than before I started... It's hard for me to explain, but since the session...everytime I think about what happened, all I can do is picture my mom running down into the basement to come get me...I know it's not real, but its better then what I was seeing in my mind before. And the good news is I've only had 1 night terror so far since Wed.
I really think this is doing something good for me...
I'm going to keep going with it.
R
We started with talking about a sentance/phrase that described how I felt while I was being raped, and I chose basically that I felt I deserved to die/ I must be such a horrible person, if I deserve this then I deserve to be dead.
So then, you close your eyes and try to get really deep into that moment when it's happenening...( I found this difficult at first because I was very uncomfortable, but after about 5 mins of relaxing and letting myself trust my therpist it was ok). You picture yourself on a train, or in a theatre as if your watching this all happen...and you can change anything you want...its like your the director of the movie, if you don't like whats happenening you can shift it in your mind...long story short, I imagined my mom coming into the basement and rescuing me... Once I was done the EMDR, my anxiety was much lower than before I started... It's hard for me to explain, but since the session...everytime I think about what happened, all I can do is picture my mom running down into the basement to come get me...I know it's not real, but its better then what I was seeing in my mind before. And the good news is I've only had 1 night terror so far since Wed.
I really think this is doing something good for me...
I'm going to keep going with it.
R
