LostInsideMyself
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I am new to the whole forum thing. So if i have trouble replying or explaining or even doing things correctly, please try to understand that i am new. Its been really hard for me to get the courage to sign up for something like this, but recently my life has taken a turn for the worse. I am a 21 year old male that works full time and goes to college. I dont have the money or insurance to seek professional help where I am from. Let me start with what has happened recently. I am with a 21 year old woman who I love dearly. We went to a college party, and she accidentaly hit me in my mouth. I got mad and walked back to her dorm room. Once she came back there was alot of argueing and I wanted to leave. She forcibly held me there. When I had enough I grabbed her and got her out of the way. I hurt her and she fell against a desk. I got back to my apartment after I left and shortly after she came after me. We argued some more. I told her all I wanted to do was go to sleep. I turned my back on her and she slapped me in the back of my head. I have to admit that I had too much to drink. After she slapped me, I grabbed her
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Its only been about 4 days since it has happened. ...
The police showed up. My girlfriend and I both made statement. No charges were made, and my girlfriend and I are trying to work things out. I have had a history of binge drinking. Alcahol abuse is in my family on both sides. It seems that everytime I am stressed out about life I drink too much and snap. I have gotten into physical fights like this on many occasions. It has almost been 5 years since one has happened. I thought that it was over and then it happened this weekend. I dont want this to happen again. I never want to hurt my girlfriend emotionally or physically. I want to stay with her and live a happy life. Does anyone have any advice on how to help? Ive quit drinking, but I dont think that alcahol was the main reason. I just started college and working 40 hours with an abundance of school work with no money is very very stressful. I think anxiety is also a factor. Stress makes me do some pretty bad things. I also have a huge jealousy problem with my girlfriend. But i will save that for another forum topic. Please help me help myself in trying to fix this problem. I am all alone living in a one bedroom apartment. All of my friends have turned against me because of this. I dont know what to do. Any kind of response would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you
Lost
<admin edit: deleted description of an aggressive physical conflict between the poster, his girlfriend, and some friends>
Its only been about 4 days since it has happened. ...
The police showed up. My girlfriend and I both made statement. No charges were made, and my girlfriend and I are trying to work things out. I have had a history of binge drinking. Alcahol abuse is in my family on both sides. It seems that everytime I am stressed out about life I drink too much and snap. I have gotten into physical fights like this on many occasions. It has almost been 5 years since one has happened. I thought that it was over and then it happened this weekend. I dont want this to happen again. I never want to hurt my girlfriend emotionally or physically. I want to stay with her and live a happy life. Does anyone have any advice on how to help? Ive quit drinking, but I dont think that alcahol was the main reason. I just started college and working 40 hours with an abundance of school work with no money is very very stressful. I think anxiety is also a factor. Stress makes me do some pretty bad things. I also have a huge jealousy problem with my girlfriend. But i will save that for another forum topic. Please help me help myself in trying to fix this problem. I am all alone living in a one bedroom apartment. All of my friends have turned against me because of this. I dont know what to do. Any kind of response would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you
Lost
