I totally hate the way I feel about 99% of the time. I was anorexic when I was in my teens, and this developed into bulimia.
I hate being bulimic, but can't help it. I do not practice all the time but when times are stressful I do.
I drink alchohol too much. Again this started in my teens. I often hate myself for drinking too much. Sometimes I don't even remember events that have taken place.
I think that when I was in my teens I used ED for coping mechanisms. I am 46 years old and in the day EDs were not even discussed. I didn't even have a name for what I was doing. I would purge and use laxatives.
Right now I am trying to overcome the hatreds in my life. The more hatreds the more I find I am susceptible. I have seen many successful posts on this site, and hope that one day I too will be a success.
Will write later.
I hate being bulimic, but can't help it. I do not practice all the time but when times are stressful I do.
I drink alchohol too much. Again this started in my teens. I often hate myself for drinking too much. Sometimes I don't even remember events that have taken place.
I think that when I was in my teens I used ED for coping mechanisms. I am 46 years old and in the day EDs were not even discussed. I didn't even have a name for what I was doing. I would purge and use laxatives.
Right now I am trying to overcome the hatreds in my life. The more hatreds the more I find I am susceptible. I have seen many successful posts on this site, and hope that one day I too will be a success.
Will write later.