David Baxter PhD
Late Founder
How To Put Your Eating Disorder Recovery First
by Jessica Hudgens, HealthyPlace.com
Jan 15, 2015
First, let?s recap why it is so important for you to put your recovery first.
In short, your eating disorder affects every area of your life. Anorexia, bulimia, binge eating, and other eating disorders will destroy the things most important to you (and in short order!), so you need to spend just as much time and energy on your recovery as you did acting on your eating disorder. Which, while it surely felt second nature and automatic (and therefore probably felt like you spent no time at all on it), was a tremendous amount of time.
My basic philosophy for prioritizing your eating disorder recovery can be summed up in three words: Recovery First. Always.
The cornerstones of your recovery are nutrition (AKA eating without compensation) and appointments with your treatment team. These things should be scheduled before anything else on your calendar. This might leave you with some uncomfortable choices. For example:
There have certainly been times in my life when it felt like I couldn?t put recovery first. At some times it was because I didn?t have the skills or support to make recovery happen; at others, it was because I didn?t have the mental, emotional, or physical energy required to do so. Regardless of the reason, if you aren?t able to prioritize your recovery (and/or aren?t making good progress) in your current treatment situation, it may be time to change things.
It may mean adding a second (or third) appointment each week with your therapist or seeing your psychiatrist every other week instead of every month. It may mean finding a treatment center near you where you can go a few nights a week for extra meal support and education. Or it may mean taking weeks or months away from home and doing a residential or inpatient stay to get your recovery going.
I should note here that there is no shame in choosing any of these options if they are called for. A lot of us as sufferers, especially those of us who have been in recovery for some period of time, feel that increasing the time we are spending in treatment is a step backwards. It?s not. It?s a wise, recovery-oriented decision that ensures you keep your recovery first.
Putting My Own Recovery First
That said, I certainly understand the feeling of shame. I am struggling with it some myself now. I had to make the decision to drop a class prior to the start of the semester, knowing that the subject content could be triggering and that I am simply not equipped mentally or emotionally to take an ?extra? class beyond the minimum required. While I am by no means back in my anorexia, I can certainly recognize areas where I have slipped and areas I need to prioritize to be at my prime physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual health.
So for me, putting recovery first right now means a lighter workload. Even if that keeps me in school longer and it feels like a ?waste of money.?
Recovery first. Always.
by Jessica Hudgens, HealthyPlace.com
Jan 15, 2015
First, let?s recap why it is so important for you to put your recovery first.
In short, your eating disorder affects every area of your life. Anorexia, bulimia, binge eating, and other eating disorders will destroy the things most important to you (and in short order!), so you need to spend just as much time and energy on your recovery as you did acting on your eating disorder. Which, while it surely felt second nature and automatic (and therefore probably felt like you spent no time at all on it), was a tremendous amount of time.
My basic philosophy for prioritizing your eating disorder recovery can be summed up in three words: Recovery First. Always.
The cornerstones of your recovery are nutrition (AKA eating without compensation) and appointments with your treatment team. These things should be scheduled before anything else on your calendar. This might leave you with some uncomfortable choices. For example:
- Early in my recovery, I was looking for a job and was finally offered the exact position I wanted in a preschool. However, the hours would have conflicted with the hours my therapist and dietitian were open. After talking with the school, there wasn?t much they could do in the way of changing the hours, so I had to turn them (and the steady paycheck) down.
- I have, on more than one occasion, had dinner in my therapist?s office because of the timing of our sessions. It also really forced me to challenge the shame I felt about eating around other people.
- On the first day of classes last year, I had to approach my professors and tell them I would have to eat meals and snacks in class. Not only that, but if they found this disruptive, I would have to be excused to eat in the hallway. Not eating? Not an option. (Thankfully, all of my professors are great about it and actually encourage it!)
There have certainly been times in my life when it felt like I couldn?t put recovery first. At some times it was because I didn?t have the skills or support to make recovery happen; at others, it was because I didn?t have the mental, emotional, or physical energy required to do so. Regardless of the reason, if you aren?t able to prioritize your recovery (and/or aren?t making good progress) in your current treatment situation, it may be time to change things.
It may mean adding a second (or third) appointment each week with your therapist or seeing your psychiatrist every other week instead of every month. It may mean finding a treatment center near you where you can go a few nights a week for extra meal support and education. Or it may mean taking weeks or months away from home and doing a residential or inpatient stay to get your recovery going.
I should note here that there is no shame in choosing any of these options if they are called for. A lot of us as sufferers, especially those of us who have been in recovery for some period of time, feel that increasing the time we are spending in treatment is a step backwards. It?s not. It?s a wise, recovery-oriented decision that ensures you keep your recovery first.
Putting My Own Recovery First
That said, I certainly understand the feeling of shame. I am struggling with it some myself now. I had to make the decision to drop a class prior to the start of the semester, knowing that the subject content could be triggering and that I am simply not equipped mentally or emotionally to take an ?extra? class beyond the minimum required. While I am by no means back in my anorexia, I can certainly recognize areas where I have slipped and areas I need to prioritize to be at my prime physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual health.
So for me, putting recovery first right now means a lighter workload. Even if that keeps me in school longer and it feels like a ?waste of money.?
Recovery first. Always.
