braveheart
Member
Help. Please.
I need to scream.
I've bit by arm rather than scream. I can't scream here. I need to scream.
I feel so sad and alone. I'm hurting.
The impact of realising the full intensity of the parts of my personality resulting from past abuse.
And triggers at home.
Help.
I need someone to hold onto. I need someone to hold onto me. I feel like I am fragmenting.
I am so close to hurting myself. Like I don't care.
But I do care.
I just feel so alone.
I'm hurting too much.
I'm numb.
I can't cry.
And I can't cry because everyone would hear.
I can't bear this pain bubbling up inside me.
I can't talk to my flatmates just now as they've got their own troubles [being one of my triggers..]
I have therapy again tomorrow morning, but that seems aeons away.
I don't know what to say, how to communicate this pain, this terror, this regret and anguish and sorrow and hurt.
And I feel so cold. I got soaking wet walking to therapy today. My trousres were dripping and I had to put my socks on the radiator.
Take away this pain. Please have mercy on me.
I need to scream.
I've bit by arm rather than scream. I can't scream here. I need to scream.
I feel so sad and alone. I'm hurting.
The impact of realising the full intensity of the parts of my personality resulting from past abuse.
And triggers at home.
Help.
I need someone to hold onto. I need someone to hold onto me. I feel like I am fragmenting.
I am so close to hurting myself. Like I don't care.
But I do care.
I just feel so alone.
I'm hurting too much.
I'm numb.
I can't cry.
And I can't cry because everyone would hear.
I can't bear this pain bubbling up inside me.
I can't talk to my flatmates just now as they've got their own troubles [being one of my triggers..]
I have therapy again tomorrow morning, but that seems aeons away.
I don't know what to say, how to communicate this pain, this terror, this regret and anguish and sorrow and hurt.
And I feel so cold. I got soaking wet walking to therapy today. My trousres were dripping and I had to put my socks on the radiator.
Take away this pain. Please have mercy on me.