Atlantean
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I completed suicide on April 4. I was in a state of cardiac and respiratory arrest for 45 minutes. I have amnesia of the day of the incident through around the fourth day in recovery from being intubated and kept in the ICU on a ventilator. My body temperature was 94 for over 12 hours, despite the technology they used to try to raise my temperature (i.e. bear blanket, warm saline drip).
I feel really different now. Its quite odd for me. I can't wrap my head around what happened and I cannot find a local support group for this type of thing. I would love to start my own, but I am spread a bit thin these days and I dont think I should put myself in a position for others to rely on me, when I can barely manage all my current responsibilities.
I feel a lot calmer. My Anxiety and insomnia went away for the first few days, but now I am scared to sleep because I am scared that since my heart stopped once, it may do it again. Parts of me know this is illogical, the rest of me begs to differ. I do have an appointment with my PCP tomorrow, and my Psychiatrist in around 12 days. I am doing everything I can to figure things out and get what I need, but I guess what I really want to know is there anyone out there who has died and come back?
I feel really different now. Its quite odd for me. I can't wrap my head around what happened and I cannot find a local support group for this type of thing. I would love to start my own, but I am spread a bit thin these days and I dont think I should put myself in a position for others to rely on me, when I can barely manage all my current responsibilities.
I feel a lot calmer. My Anxiety and insomnia went away for the first few days, but now I am scared to sleep because I am scared that since my heart stopped once, it may do it again. Parts of me know this is illogical, the rest of me begs to differ. I do have an appointment with my PCP tomorrow, and my Psychiatrist in around 12 days. I am doing everything I can to figure things out and get what I need, but I guess what I really want to know is there anyone out there who has died and come back?
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