Hi I am new here.... Today I divorced the last member of my family which whom I maintained contact. i just refuse totake any of the abuse and I need to let go of them. I just feel so lonely but it kind of beats the alternative.
My father was always verbally and physically abusive to my mother, however she is the worst of the 2 of them, because as much as he was abusive she is a sociopath. they are both messed up. Anyway, my dad was never that bad with me. Until he remarry and his new wife started abusing my sisters and me. My sisters are all dysfunctional. 2 of them are very bad alcoholics. I cannot be close to them as I have issues with alcohol, but I am sober now. I am functional, financially independent and normal. My main issue in life is that I have a hard time opening to people maybe because of my mother's emotional abuse. I am convinced she is a sociopath; she is unable to feel human emotion.
Five years ago one of my siblings told me my father sexually abused her. So I cut off my dad. My youngest sister is an alcoholic and she stopped talking to me when I stopped drinking as I was not willing for us to get wasted. My mother has always hated me. She told my family the best thing was for me to die. She said "I wish she dies". It was very hurtful to hear it. So anyway. I tried to make peace with that but I cannot. My older sister has not talked to me in about 6 years. Mostly all my siblings hate me because I stopped talking to my parents (my dad is a sexual abuser and my mother hates me so much that she wishes I was dead).
I only had contact with the only person in my family (sister). Her son stayed with me during last summer and he stole from me (took my credit cards without permission and got cash). I asked him to leave but my relationship with his mother became somehow strained.
yesterday I made a comment about her son visiting my father and she let me have it. She send me an email pretty much saying "I wish you burn in hell".
I cannot take the abuse anymore. I just can't. They are my family and my blood but I can't. I changed my email address today and my cell phone #. I know they are family and we have the same blood. But I can't.
I invited her before to stay at my house but I told her today please do not come. They are all overseas and she was going to come and I was going to pay for her trip, but now I don't want to pay. I want to be left alone. I wish God forgives me but I do not want to have any more contact with my family. I feel Some guilt, but I also know I am a good person. And I cannot take this anymore.
My father was always verbally and physically abusive to my mother, however she is the worst of the 2 of them, because as much as he was abusive she is a sociopath. they are both messed up. Anyway, my dad was never that bad with me. Until he remarry and his new wife started abusing my sisters and me. My sisters are all dysfunctional. 2 of them are very bad alcoholics. I cannot be close to them as I have issues with alcohol, but I am sober now. I am functional, financially independent and normal. My main issue in life is that I have a hard time opening to people maybe because of my mother's emotional abuse. I am convinced she is a sociopath; she is unable to feel human emotion.
Five years ago one of my siblings told me my father sexually abused her. So I cut off my dad. My youngest sister is an alcoholic and she stopped talking to me when I stopped drinking as I was not willing for us to get wasted. My mother has always hated me. She told my family the best thing was for me to die. She said "I wish she dies". It was very hurtful to hear it. So anyway. I tried to make peace with that but I cannot. My older sister has not talked to me in about 6 years. Mostly all my siblings hate me because I stopped talking to my parents (my dad is a sexual abuser and my mother hates me so much that she wishes I was dead).
I only had contact with the only person in my family (sister). Her son stayed with me during last summer and he stole from me (took my credit cards without permission and got cash). I asked him to leave but my relationship with his mother became somehow strained.
yesterday I made a comment about her son visiting my father and she let me have it. She send me an email pretty much saying "I wish you burn in hell".
I cannot take the abuse anymore. I just can't. They are my family and my blood but I can't. I changed my email address today and my cell phone #. I know they are family and we have the same blood. But I can't.
I invited her before to stay at my house but I told her today please do not come. They are all overseas and she was going to come and I was going to pay for her trip, but now I don't want to pay. I want to be left alone. I wish God forgives me but I do not want to have any more contact with my family. I feel Some guilt, but I also know I am a good person. And I cannot take this anymore.
At least I have my pets and God, they both love me. I am not a mistake.
