Is it possible that I have had a mental disorder from my childhood that has gone undiagnosed?
Recent events in my life have made me question my religion my validity as a human and my right to remain alive.
My wife of ten years seemed to experience what they call a psychotic depression episode and she says she asked me to take her to the hospital which she never did, instead she left the house after a conversation and never came back. come to find out she went to a neighbors house who drove her to the local hospital where she became violent and was sent to the psychology clinic under a temporary restraint order.... she explicitly told the care givers to not talk to me so I was out of my mind with worry for a period of about 11 hours.... then her friend from another state called me and told me where she was.... for the last week I’ve not slept more then 10 -15 min at a shot with several hours worry in-between.... come to find out that she has been telling her family some very negative things about me like " he's tried to kill me twice, he tried to strangle me once.... he want's me out of the picture so he can bring his new girlfriend and her three kids into our home...." ands so on
I love my wife other then a time where when she was experiencing so medical problems and I looked at pornography to release tensions I have not once looked at another person in an unfaithful way...
Now she still believes that I want a divorce and I'm trying to kill her and she has convinced it seems everyone she's talked to that I am Satan on earth. I've been under tremendous stress over the last two weeks and may have lost my job over this and now with the possibility of loosing my only reason for waking each day because she hates me.... makes me want to just curl up and die....
I'm not saying I am an angle... I'm probably far from it I retired from the military after twenty years and still have the sailors mouth.... my wife says I talk in hateful tones because the military trained me to speak emotionlessly about things and she say that I always sound angry... that is why I ask is there something wrong with me that I need to seek help for?
Recent events in my life have made me question my religion my validity as a human and my right to remain alive.
My wife of ten years seemed to experience what they call a psychotic depression episode and she says she asked me to take her to the hospital which she never did, instead she left the house after a conversation and never came back. come to find out she went to a neighbors house who drove her to the local hospital where she became violent and was sent to the psychology clinic under a temporary restraint order.... she explicitly told the care givers to not talk to me so I was out of my mind with worry for a period of about 11 hours.... then her friend from another state called me and told me where she was.... for the last week I’ve not slept more then 10 -15 min at a shot with several hours worry in-between.... come to find out that she has been telling her family some very negative things about me like " he's tried to kill me twice, he tried to strangle me once.... he want's me out of the picture so he can bring his new girlfriend and her three kids into our home...." ands so on
I love my wife other then a time where when she was experiencing so medical problems and I looked at pornography to release tensions I have not once looked at another person in an unfaithful way...
Now she still believes that I want a divorce and I'm trying to kill her and she has convinced it seems everyone she's talked to that I am Satan on earth. I've been under tremendous stress over the last two weeks and may have lost my job over this and now with the possibility of loosing my only reason for waking each day because she hates me.... makes me want to just curl up and die....
I'm not saying I am an angle... I'm probably far from it I retired from the military after twenty years and still have the sailors mouth.... my wife says I talk in hateful tones because the military trained me to speak emotionlessly about things and she say that I always sound angry... that is why I ask is there something wrong with me that I need to seek help for?