Gosh, I feel like I have been so happy with how well I am doing then it takes almost nothing for me to feel like I am back to square one. I actually conqured my shyness enough that I have been going to a gym class. The gym instructor was showing us a new circut and I couldnt get any of it, she was correcting me on everything and I could tell she was getting frustrated with me, then I wore my runners from outside into the class, I wasnt really thinking and she chewed me out in front of everyone saying that I wasnt the one that had to clean the floor. I was so embarassed I just got up and left the class when she wasnt looking. I don't even want to go back. I am so embarassed, how come I am so stupid and everyone else can understand a simple move that requires coordination and I cant. I shouldnt have stormed out either but I was ready to cry because I was so embarassed.
I shouldn't have been so high on all the progress I have made lately, obviously I still care very much about what people think and I shouldn't. I feel so stupid and I hate that I cant understand things.
I know this is a tiny minor event, I just feel like such a moron because I cant grasp simple things and then I feel humiliated. I dont ever want to go back to that gym class. Now I am a quitter too. Thanks for letting me vent, I have just been knocked down a peg I guess.
I shouldn't have been so high on all the progress I have made lately, obviously I still care very much about what people think and I shouldn't. I feel so stupid and I hate that I cant understand things.
I know this is a tiny minor event, I just feel like such a moron because I cant grasp simple things and then I feel humiliated. I dont ever want to go back to that gym class. Now I am a quitter too. Thanks for letting me vent, I have just been knocked down a peg I guess.