I hate life

[Thelostchild]

I had a previous post its under depression and its emotions mixed emotions

 

[ThatLady]

Ish. I can certainly empathize with that! My ex-husband used to drive me right out of my tree! I used to go into the bathroom and lock the door (it was the only room in the house with a lock on it) just to get away from him! He was always growling and snarling about something. I still can't imagine what joy can be found in a life spent complaining about everything and anything; yet, that was what he did. He still does, but I don't have to listen to it anymore.

 

[Thelostchild]

Ok I think im ok now I just took some valuim an im really feeling goog. and on top of that I took a really hot bath. wow

 

[ThatLady]

Glad you're feeling better!

 

[Thelostchild]

can you tell i can't spell im feeling goog

 

[Thelostchild]

For the last couple of weeks my life has become a deep depressional hole. Im anxious, aggitated, anxiety, sick I don't feel like eating, my heart goes a hundred miles a hour. Sometimes I can't sit still and im constantly moving around or im trying to find things to keep my mind busy. Or I wont get out of bed all i do is sleep all day I wont get up and take a shower or brush my teeth yuck. and I hardly socialize . I can't express myself without being emotional so I don't. And now I can't sleep because im no longer taking sereqoel . My mind races constanly thinking about things and the more I do the more I feel sick. I have lost 5 pounds.

 

[Thelostchild]

Ya know what else I think my health is going down hill

 

[Thelostchild]

And now the vomiting begins.

 

[Cat Dancer]

Sorry you're feeling so bad.

Have you talked to your doctor about all this?

 

[Thelostchild]

I don't know what they do for me. Just send me to a psyk ward. haha

 

[foghlaim]

TLC.. now that you have brought it up.... is that such a bad idea.. sounds like you could do with a rest from everything..

otherwise as janet says.. you need to talk to your doc or therapist about how you are feeling.

and i'm sorry things are not so good for you at the min..

hope you feel a bit better soon.

nsa

 

[foghlaim]

i never thought i would do that either, but i did, and i didn't do anything to myself, i needed the rest and the meds to help me feel better.. and it worked.

so when do u see therapist again? or can u contact your own gp?

 

[foghlaim]

and you won't know unless you go see him or ring him... true???

 

[Thelostchild]

I see him july 6th. But im going to see my marriage counselor the 28th of june.

 

[Daniel E.]

You really need to call your psychiatrist.

 

[Halo]

I agree with NSA and Daniel that you really need to reach out for support from someone. You sound like you could really use it. I also think that maybe the hospital (as much as you don't want to) would be a good idea as you seem like you are really struggling. At the very least, call someone you trust to talk with.

Take Care
Nancy

 

[Thelostchild]

Im waiting for him to call me back maybe i need to sound serious?

 

[foghlaim]

correct me if i'm wrong but the 6th july is nearly 2wks away.... surely you can ring for earlier apt? I'm glad u see your therapist sooner than the doc... but i think the way you are feeling now.. you could do with something to help u sleep at least.. so please ring at least and explain your situation.. he might be able to offer u something or some kind of help.. You have nothing to lose only the price of a phone call..

you take care ok.. and enuff with the ear piercing..ok..

nsa

 

[Thelostchild]

I don't have anyone to talk to that I trust. I have no friends, nothing. Im alone in this world. thats what it seems

 

[foghlaim]

i'm glad u called.. doesn't matter how u sound as long as you give him the full picture of how you are feeling these past few weeks ok.

and if he don't ring back in next hr or two,, ring again.. don't let this go ok.

thinking of you.

nsa

you are NOT alone... it may feel like it.. but u are not alone i assure you.. we are here for you as always..