kelsischanging
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well this week it finally happened...my alcohol and drug abuse finally came out and now I am being forced to get treatment for it...on monday I went to see a psychiatrist and I was very honest w/ him....honest about my stubstance abuse, depression, and cutting. He wanted to put me inpatient right away...being that I am 18, a senior in high school, and i still live w/ my parents, my dr. was forced to talk to my mom...let's just say she had no idea what was going on in my life...at my house it's a don't ask, don't tell policy so if I went out for the night and didn't come home till the next morning, my mom would not say a word...anyway I was evaluated by a treatment center but didn't meet criteria for their program b/c I am a cutter and they are not equiped to deal w/ that...so as of today I have an evaluation w/ a partial hospitalization program on Tuesday...I have not had much access the drugs (I mostly used/abused prescription drugs) or alcohol...tonight I was able to score some Xanax and wine...also I am in and out of school so much right now till I start the program...I'm just so worried that my teachers are going to look at me differently..I'm a high functioning alcholic (I don't think I'm an alcoholic but that's what my psychiatrist called me) w/ a 4.0 GPA and have been excepted to six colleges...what are they going to think when they find out I won't be in class for six weeks while I am in a partial hospitalization program...I gave me guidance couselor permission to tell them that I am in a program b/c he said they would work w/ me more...anyway now on to my question....how do I answer other kids when they ask me where I have been between this week and the beginning of next out of eight school days I will have been or will be in only two and a half of them... this is all so new to me...I thought that this was still one thing that I was keeping under everyone else's radar...I'm just tryin' to process all this...also I feel like crap b/c of some of the w/draw stuff...anyway thanks for reading this...I needed to vent and tell my story to someone!
kelsey
kelsey