Hi, i've never posted a thread before so forgive me if i dont do it right.
Im writing this in hopes that i'll be able to get help for a fear that is controlling my life.
I cant go outside at night, I panic and check and re-check corners and open spaces, I look around making sure i dont see anyone because if I do I automatically assume it is (for a lack of a better term) a "zombie."
I know this might sound pathetic but I cant get over it. I still have the fear during the day; I just feel that because of the sunlight I can see them coming and get away, whereas, at night my limited vision causes the fear to have full controll.
Even in my own apartment, i check empty rooms and keep all the lights turned on, I will only live on the highest floor apartment so that I know they wont come in the windows.
Im just scared of them, Im scared that they'll catch, bite, hurt or kill me and that I wont be able to out-run them or safely defend myself from them. Also the thought that there is no happy ending, if there is an infestation, then there is no safe place to go b/c it spreads too fast which means that eventually they will get me.
I want this to go away, I know my husband is getting tired of dealing with this, he tries to convince me that they are Not real but my mind says that its Not Impossible and I have to be prepared.
Please Help me, this has more controll of my life than what i've written it would just be too long to read/write.
Im writing this in hopes that i'll be able to get help for a fear that is controlling my life.
I cant go outside at night, I panic and check and re-check corners and open spaces, I look around making sure i dont see anyone because if I do I automatically assume it is (for a lack of a better term) a "zombie."
I know this might sound pathetic but I cant get over it. I still have the fear during the day; I just feel that because of the sunlight I can see them coming and get away, whereas, at night my limited vision causes the fear to have full controll.
Even in my own apartment, i check empty rooms and keep all the lights turned on, I will only live on the highest floor apartment so that I know they wont come in the windows.
Im just scared of them, Im scared that they'll catch, bite, hurt or kill me and that I wont be able to out-run them or safely defend myself from them. Also the thought that there is no happy ending, if there is an infestation, then there is no safe place to go b/c it spreads too fast which means that eventually they will get me.
I want this to go away, I know my husband is getting tired of dealing with this, he tries to convince me that they are Not real but my mind says that its Not Impossible and I have to be prepared.
Please Help me, this has more controll of my life than what i've written it would just be too long to read/write.
