I recently went off abilify and i was having a manic episode and my mom was begging me to take it and I told her it makes me have weird thoughts so I took the xanax and left the pill on my desk and cleaned my room. now the pills gone I don't remember taking it but Im afraid I did and ill start to have the thoughts allover again if tookk it wouldnt I at least remember I did Im starting to feel all the symptoms of it is this placebo or did I actually take the pill also is this OCD?