I feel like I'm grieving for something I never had and can't have and that's my father's love. There's a big hole in my heart that just can't be filled. How do I get over this?
There just aren't any words for the pain.how are you holding out, janet?
Auburn said:So, this is what I did. I tried to find, and I did, one instance when he did show genuine love. I hold onto to that, and even though he was a terrible father, I tell myself that deep down, he did the best he could, and that he loved me.
Auburn said:It does get easier, as much as that just sounds like a line. And holding onto the one small demonstration has helped.
I hope your pain eases hun. I am thinking of you and sending all my love to you.
braveheart said:I too can understand.
My father was unable to express or show love to me when I was growing up.
I too have an immense grief because of that.
To heal it seems to involve feeling the pain to the depth of my heart.