My borderline dilemmas

[ddHopes]

Hi,

As many of you know I am bpd, and have ptsd, between the two of them and my SO working 11-7, I am very scared. Afraid of the night and afraid of being alone.

I know he has to work, and it seems I've been trapped with this emptiness for his 3 years at working here. It pays good, but he takes many nights off to be with me thru fmla. I just panic on his way out the door.

I'm lost and alone. I don't feel sorry for myself, I'm just terrified. That is why I came here.

Does anyone relate to either the abandonment, alone feeling?
I can't go anywhere cause it's night and I have agoraphobia anyway, unless with him. And no one to talk to and I am bipolar 1. So my mind races. I tried to sleep thru it, but then I'm up during the day while he sleeps and can't make any noise. Plus I sleep with mace and a knife and one eye open. my dogs do help some. Esp brandi.

oh poooooooo

 

[Cat Dancer]

Re: My borderline delimmas

I tried to post earlier and I don't know what happened. I messed it up somehow.

I don't have bpd. I might have ptsd. I haven't been diagnosed with it yet.

I can relate to this:

Does anyone relate to either the abandonment, alone feeling?

Night is very hard for me at times. I cannot sleep and even thinking about sleep makes my heart race and makes me feel very anxious. Sometimes it isn't so bad. I try to distract myself by watching tv until I fall asleep. Probably not the best thing to do. I can't take any medications right now so I'm just kind of stuck sometimes not really sleeping.

I guess I don't have any advice, but I can relate.

 

[Into The Light]

Re: My borderline delimmas

janet have you tried using relaxation techniques or meditation/yoga tapes to listen to to help you fall asleep? not sure if this is helpful but it's a thought. others might be able to refer you to material you could use (i don't have anything specific to point you to).

 

[ddHopes]

Thank you Janet.

It is hard for people to understand this. we have a big group of bpd in my forum but here it is kinda all cummmbled, and I feel weird postin gon it, I wish we could have the pds seperated into appropriate catagories. as an aspd and an avoidant, vs, bpd etc , are all differnt in sx.s

Thanks again.

 

[ddHopes]

Thank you Janet.

It is hard for people to understand this. we have a big group of bpd in my forum but here it is kinda all cummmbled, and I feel weird postin gon it, I wish we could have the pds seperated into appropriate catagories. as an aspd and an avoidant, vs, bpd etc , are all differnt in sx.s

Thanks again.

Oopps, I see I was moved, I guess they are seperate, sorry David. Im a pita ain't I?
It just takes me awhile to learn knew format, but this is my fav, I do like some asps. but not all they can get confusing way. :sigh: never did find that help smiley. Where is it. I know what it looks like but where is it located. STill learning.................... :roll:

 

[ThatLady]

Help smiley is on the fourth row from the top, next to the popcorn smiley

 

[ddHopes]

Help smiley is on the fourth row from the top, next to the popcorn smiley

:help:

Well I''ll be darned, none of the admin could find it. lol so I just did semicolon help semicolon. Thanks hon. See that david, we weren't losing ours minds, with me again. ???????

lol. opcorn: :walk: Ymmy