BluMac81
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On some occassions I have tried to sleep without any medications, on nights when I am extremely tired... but find that the more tired I am, the more anxious I get, and the more anxious I get, the less likely I am to sleep.
A doctor called it psycho-physiological insomnia (mind-body), and that is why I am perscribed sleep aids AND benzos in order to sleep. I don't know where this came from but it started in 2003, five years ago, and has gotten worse since.
One thing is that my mind races about things I did that day, things I need to do tomorrow, and then dwells on the fact that I NEED to get to sleep for tomorrow's tasks and get anxious about the fact that I won't sleep! It's a ridiculous cycle but it has been plaguing me for years.
Heck, tonight, its 11:38pm, I arrived home after a grueling 8 hour drive exhausted at 6pm, took my meds at 9pm, and then suddenly felt the need to do this and that and the other thing....11pm rolls around and I figure I should get to bed, but anxiety increases as I even start walking towards the bed.
It was this night that I chose not to take the usual xanax since I'm trying to wene off of it (dangerous drug I find), but resorted to (just a few moments ago) taking another 2mg lunesta and 3mg xanax.
I just don't know HOW to sleep, as crazy as that sounds. Just lie there? Do nothing? What are you supposed to think about? Do you force some dream-thinking? Sleep just totally feels unnatural to me...
A doctor called it psycho-physiological insomnia (mind-body), and that is why I am perscribed sleep aids AND benzos in order to sleep. I don't know where this came from but it started in 2003, five years ago, and has gotten worse since.
One thing is that my mind races about things I did that day, things I need to do tomorrow, and then dwells on the fact that I NEED to get to sleep for tomorrow's tasks and get anxious about the fact that I won't sleep! It's a ridiculous cycle but it has been plaguing me for years.
Heck, tonight, its 11:38pm, I arrived home after a grueling 8 hour drive exhausted at 6pm, took my meds at 9pm, and then suddenly felt the need to do this and that and the other thing....11pm rolls around and I figure I should get to bed, but anxiety increases as I even start walking towards the bed.
It was this night that I chose not to take the usual xanax since I'm trying to wene off of it (dangerous drug I find), but resorted to (just a few moments ago) taking another 2mg lunesta and 3mg xanax.
I just don't know HOW to sleep, as crazy as that sounds. Just lie there? Do nothing? What are you supposed to think about? Do you force some dream-thinking? Sleep just totally feels unnatural to me...