I'm new to this forum. I felt like I needed somewhere to ask for help or advice. I have an addiction to painkillers. Oxycontin, Oxycodone, and Valium specifically. I actually think the worst part of this is that I steal them from my mother. She's not an addict, she's actually very sick and in a tremendous amount of pain so the amount of pills they give her is a lot. I don't know what to do. About six months ago I had a breakdown and told my mother that I thought I was addicted and that I had been stealing them from her. I wasn't living at home at the time and I told her this over the phone. She believed me but then I told her I went through a mild withdraw(which I did) but then I told her that it was over and that I didn't want them anymore. I also happen to be a very good liar. I told her I was fine and when I came back home I started stealing the drugs again. I'm so conflicted and disgusted with myself. I do not believe that I have progessed far enough to have a physical addiction, at least not so far that if I stopped taking them I wouldn't be able to stand it or go through major withdraw. I think I am mentally addicted. I know what the obvious solutions are to my problem...but how do I go about telling my mother all of this? Do I have to tell her? You all sound very nice and understanding on these boards...I just...could use a little advice...support...anything. I feel pretty lost.