I am going to see my Psychiatrist on Monday November 10th.
Last time I saw him, I had to get him to fill out a work form. Work wanted information regarding my illness to try to accompodate me. I had been off work for 3 weeks prior to this on a sick leave. He had suggested I try and go back to work the next day, but I never got a chance to talk to him much as he was filling in this questionaire for my work. I left the office in pieces and contemplated finishing myself off while I was in the washroom in the hallway, but thought better of it.
I did go to work the next day, got through the day but crashed really bad in the evening. I had awoken the next 2 days with terror like I had never felt before. I was not wanting to hear the disapointment in their voices at work when I called in, I couldn't get my head around how I was feeling. I really wanted to die, if it ment I had to go there. I had never felt this before. Has anyone else felt a terror before? It isn't even like my worst panic attack, it was like I was so scared I felt I had no other options
I have posted about a co worker at my previous location. He pinned my office chair to my desk while I was typing and pushed his hands between my upper arms and body, while I struggled saying no. This happened exactly to the time last year, I figured out later.
I called work and booked off until I could see my family doctor and she wrote me a note saying I was "currently considered disabled".
I nervously took the note into work that day. I faxed a copy to my Psychiatrist incase my work contacted him questioning it. With a note saying "I am terrified, I am sorry I can't go there anymore"
My concerns are, when I see him I am afraid he is going to think it is like a Mommy against Daddy thing, which it is not.
I think I am just feeling insecure about it, but I don't want to think I defied him. I am also afraid he won't support me being off.
He had said that day, it is either you try to work or go on disability. I told him I wanted to try and work. He said working is good for me as it keeps me within the community and social. Which I can completly understand.
I tried and couldn't get past the terror. I am so afraid he will be mad at me and that he will want me to go back.
Thanks for listening.
Last time I saw him, I had to get him to fill out a work form. Work wanted information regarding my illness to try to accompodate me. I had been off work for 3 weeks prior to this on a sick leave. He had suggested I try and go back to work the next day, but I never got a chance to talk to him much as he was filling in this questionaire for my work. I left the office in pieces and contemplated finishing myself off while I was in the washroom in the hallway, but thought better of it.
I did go to work the next day, got through the day but crashed really bad in the evening. I had awoken the next 2 days with terror like I had never felt before. I was not wanting to hear the disapointment in their voices at work when I called in, I couldn't get my head around how I was feeling. I really wanted to die, if it ment I had to go there. I had never felt this before. Has anyone else felt a terror before? It isn't even like my worst panic attack, it was like I was so scared I felt I had no other options
I have posted about a co worker at my previous location. He pinned my office chair to my desk while I was typing and pushed his hands between my upper arms and body, while I struggled saying no. This happened exactly to the time last year, I figured out later.
I called work and booked off until I could see my family doctor and she wrote me a note saying I was "currently considered disabled".
I nervously took the note into work that day. I faxed a copy to my Psychiatrist incase my work contacted him questioning it. With a note saying "I am terrified, I am sorry I can't go there anymore"
My concerns are, when I see him I am afraid he is going to think it is like a Mommy against Daddy thing, which it is not.
I think I am just feeling insecure about it, but I don't want to think I defied him. I am also afraid he won't support me being off.
He had said that day, it is either you try to work or go on disability. I told him I wanted to try and work. He said working is good for me as it keeps me within the community and social. Which I can completly understand.
I tried and couldn't get past the terror. I am so afraid he will be mad at me and that he will want me to go back.
Thanks for listening.