I am Kayla... I found this site while lying awake listening to make sure my husband did not stop breathing after asking how many pills he took for his spiralling depression. The booze, the pills.. If only that were the only problem. He is diagnosed schizophrenic.. I have no one I feel I can talk to. When I discuss the illness with friends they think it's an invitation to attack his character. I'm close to leaving.. Making mental notes of what I need to take when I go. But who will take care of him then? So this is my hope for support on a peer level.