During an arguement earlier this evening with my girlfriend, she hit me twice and kicked me without provocation (she claimed I had an "ass-hole" additude) and when I told her to shut up so I could speak (I'm almost never so upfront in conversations and almost always go along with anything), she got very upset and tried to throw me to the side.
Well, in this motion, I grabbed her shoulders to talk to her, but she resisted and I pushed her (not very roughly) towards the car (her back was against the side panel, not hitting any specific on the car and no, I wasn't beating her...). But in doing this, I did hurt her a bit and she says I left marks on her arms. I haven't seen her arms, since I had to go to work as did she. I love her dearly and never meant to hurt her.
I am a big guy and can cause alot of damage, but I'm a pasifist. I detest violence toawrds women. She has had her share of rough relationships with mean and they DID beat her and cause harm purposely. I do have a temper and I could stand some anger management (my old therapist said to find physical outlets like construction or wood cutting or mental outlets like my hobby computer repair and just submerage myself...focus my energies towards that instead), but in all this I'm not violent and I could never strike her with ill intentions.
Am I violent because I had that outburst? Or do things like that "just happen"? I don't plan on it happening again, but I didn't plan for the first time either. She loves me and has said so, after the event...but we haven't spoken in great detail yet.
Well, in this motion, I grabbed her shoulders to talk to her, but she resisted and I pushed her (not very roughly) towards the car (her back was against the side panel, not hitting any specific on the car and no, I wasn't beating her...). But in doing this, I did hurt her a bit and she says I left marks on her arms. I haven't seen her arms, since I had to go to work as did she. I love her dearly and never meant to hurt her.
I am a big guy and can cause alot of damage, but I'm a pasifist. I detest violence toawrds women. She has had her share of rough relationships with mean and they DID beat her and cause harm purposely. I do have a temper and I could stand some anger management (my old therapist said to find physical outlets like construction or wood cutting or mental outlets like my hobby computer repair and just submerage myself...focus my energies towards that instead), but in all this I'm not violent and I could never strike her with ill intentions.
Am I violent because I had that outburst? Or do things like that "just happen"? I don't plan on it happening again, but I didn't plan for the first time either. She loves me and has said so, after the event...but we haven't spoken in great detail yet.