Quite a few years ago, I decided to get rid of my psychiatrist and was able to find an internist willing to assist me with medication needs. It has taken me a long time to trust him, but I have come to view him as a very compassionate person who does not judge me for being bipolar. However, each time that I visit his office, I am reminded that I am bipolar by his staff. The other day, I had a visit and I watched as the nursing assistant called up my chart and read it. I felt violated and I wanted to swat her. It felt like a complete invasion of the most sensitive material within my life. Afterwards, she turned to me and stated that she wanted to go over my medications. I told her no and asked her to leave. Following my visit, I was given a copy of the printout the assistant had reviewed and I just wanted to crawl under a chair. My entire history of all complaints and ailments including the bipolar and depression stuff was listed. Later, I had an appointment with my therapist and I asked her straight up if she viewed me as a "real person" or as someone who is bipolar. She told me that she has always viewed me as a real person for which I was grateful.
I would like some handles on this because it's bugging me that I cannot work myself past this sense of feeling different. Outside of my doctor and therapist, my husband and a very select group of people know of my situation. I am not proud of it. Thank you.
I would like some handles on this because it's bugging me that I cannot work myself past this sense of feeling different. Outside of my doctor and therapist, my husband and a very select group of people know of my situation. I am not proud of it. Thank you.