I have had a traumatic brain injury for past 8 years.
My recovery, mentally, has been exceptional, however, my physical recovery is not so well due to paralyzed left arm, very weak left leg, developed epilepsy from severe head injury, and most recently, I was addicted to ativan and demoral pills( demerol, due to I am allergic to nearly every other pain medication)(ativan because I suffer from violent seizures and ativan was prescribed from my former neurologist to help me 'stay calm' during those attacks) I was admitted in drug rehab last August 7th. and I attended AA meetings there and completed that rehab after 2 months. I am proud to say that I have not used drugs at all after 7 August- nearly 1 year
But I am finding that I have dveloped new 'dependancies' to other unusual things. such as I can not sleep for more than 3 hours and never make it to REM sleep, unless I use strong sleeping pills each night. I have become dependant on the internet so badly- I never realized that the net could be a real addiction before
I make excuses for myself. I say that I need to chat and have 'people' I can talk to because of my physical disability, I can't leave my house easily, I live in a very small town and meeting people is difficult. And when I do get a chance to meet real people they are afraid of my I think because they don't understand what's wrong with me
I don't know how to have a life anymore...I don't know how to leave my pc and have a normal life. I also don't know how to enjoy life anymore. I used to paint and sketch and make music. but it's become more of a bother these past few months.
My recovery, mentally, has been exceptional, however, my physical recovery is not so well due to paralyzed left arm, very weak left leg, developed epilepsy from severe head injury, and most recently, I was addicted to ativan and demoral pills( demerol, due to I am allergic to nearly every other pain medication)(ativan because I suffer from violent seizures and ativan was prescribed from my former neurologist to help me 'stay calm' during those attacks) I was admitted in drug rehab last August 7th. and I attended AA meetings there and completed that rehab after 2 months. I am proud to say that I have not used drugs at all after 7 August- nearly 1 year
But I am finding that I have dveloped new 'dependancies' to other unusual things. such as I can not sleep for more than 3 hours and never make it to REM sleep, unless I use strong sleeping pills each night. I have become dependant on the internet so badly- I never realized that the net could be a real addiction before
I make excuses for myself. I say that I need to chat and have 'people' I can talk to because of my physical disability, I can't leave my house easily, I live in a very small town and meeting people is difficult. And when I do get a chance to meet real people they are afraid of my I think because they don't understand what's wrong with me
I don't know how to have a life anymore...I don't know how to leave my pc and have a normal life. I also don't know how to enjoy life anymore. I used to paint and sketch and make music. but it's become more of a bother these past few months.