lallieth
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In agreement with my therapist, I will begin reducing my SSRI from 20mg to 10mg. Reason being is that my goal for therapy is to learn to deal with the anxiety and the thoughts that provoke it.
At first I was reluctant, but I realize that in order for me to deal with the worries and fears, I need to face them head on.
The thought of feeling any amount of anxiety and more so, the thoughts and worries associated with it, frankly, scares the crap out of me.
But what would be the point of therapy, if I were not to have an absolute goal.
I wonder, what if I have thoughts I can’t deal with, or the worry/fears seem to take on a life of their own… medication keeps me protected.
But medication also acts like a barrier, that doesn’t allow me to deal with problems/fears/worries on a normal human level.
On the positive side, reducing my meds will also allow for a more restful sleep, and hopefully reduce the vividness of my dreams and allow me to sleep through the night without waking up every few hours
As well, I won’t have the weight gain associated with SSRI’s as that is a concern for me. I know being on the meds caused a good 20lb weight gain and it was only after I took an 8 month break was I able to loose that weight
And so today it begins
At first I was reluctant, but I realize that in order for me to deal with the worries and fears, I need to face them head on.
The thought of feeling any amount of anxiety and more so, the thoughts and worries associated with it, frankly, scares the crap out of me.
But what would be the point of therapy, if I were not to have an absolute goal.
I wonder, what if I have thoughts I can’t deal with, or the worry/fears seem to take on a life of their own… medication keeps me protected.
But medication also acts like a barrier, that doesn’t allow me to deal with problems/fears/worries on a normal human level.
On the positive side, reducing my meds will also allow for a more restful sleep, and hopefully reduce the vividness of my dreams and allow me to sleep through the night without waking up every few hours
As well, I won’t have the weight gain associated with SSRI’s as that is a concern for me. I know being on the meds caused a good 20lb weight gain and it was only after I took an 8 month break was I able to loose that weight
And so today it begins