Hi! Thanks for the welcome. I was thinking of trying to introduce myself and didn't quite know how to start. I started therapy again last year (went for a while in college) to try to address a really long, dragged out depression. I thought my life was fine and I just needed anti-depressants, but none of them worked, so finally went to therapy at the urging of my mother in law.
In therapy, I've slowly realized that my whole way of thinking is very distorted and I blame myself for EVERYTHING, and let everyone around me blame me for everything. So, my life really wasn't so fine; I was just willing to accept that everything that was going wrong was ME. Therapy has been helpful and I'm incredibly better, but trying to address some of the reasons (childhood abuse and neglect) that caused my distorted thinking. So, I'm now feeling kind of stupid that stuff that happened to me so long ago is still causing me so many problems.
My mother in law recently asked us to go with her to benefit for a foster care group in our city. During the benefit, one of the speakers was a young man who had been horribly abused. During his speech, I could *feel* the belt on my back again. I was really in pain and it was incredibly disconcerting to be in this crowded room of people in suits and dresses, all dressed up myself and be in so much pain and sweating from pain and anxiety. I found this website in searching the 'net for more information about what was going on with me. So, I know that what happened isn't all that uncommon, and it feels a little better to know that there are other people out there struggling with the same issues.
So, again, thanks for the welcome!
Rhonda
In therapy, I've slowly realized that my whole way of thinking is very distorted and I blame myself for EVERYTHING, and let everyone around me blame me for everything. So, my life really wasn't so fine; I was just willing to accept that everything that was going wrong was ME. Therapy has been helpful and I'm incredibly better, but trying to address some of the reasons (childhood abuse and neglect) that caused my distorted thinking. So, I'm now feeling kind of stupid that stuff that happened to me so long ago is still causing me so many problems.
My mother in law recently asked us to go with her to benefit for a foster care group in our city. During the benefit, one of the speakers was a young man who had been horribly abused. During his speech, I could *feel* the belt on my back again. I was really in pain and it was incredibly disconcerting to be in this crowded room of people in suits and dresses, all dressed up myself and be in so much pain and sweating from pain and anxiety. I found this website in searching the 'net for more information about what was going on with me. So, I know that what happened isn't all that uncommon, and it feels a little better to know that there are other people out there struggling with the same issues.
So, again, thanks for the welcome!
Rhonda
