Hello,
I really need some help. Im 24 and have been with my husband for 3 years now. During my childhood i was happy and active girl but one moment when i was about 16 i started to feel that im ugly and fat and no one likes me as a girlfriend (because some people told me this and i believed them). After highschool i became very shy and didnt go out, i had few friends to be with but overall i was all the time alone because i felt so insecure. I didnt go partying or going out with guys. i was just all the time after university at home.
When i was 21 i met with my first and only boyfriend who i really love (through internet), i have been in love before also but that was different. He had had many girlfriends before me and had lots of fun too but for me he was really first.Everything was great for 2 years- we got married and live happily but i start to feel worse. I feel im so old and best times of my life are over. I feel i totally missed important part of my life (16-22), this time when others went out with boys, went to parties, just did everything they like, overall enjoyed being young. I never did that.
My husband knows about that and says we can do all these things together now but i dont want to do it with him (we go out sometimes and he really tries his best but thats not making me feel good).Like i said i feel im far too old for these things now. I wish i could feel again 17 and feel good and do these things without him. I definitely dont want to leave him and i dont need to flirt with other men. Is hard to describe what i want but i know i have to do something. Its really destroying my life.
I really need some help. Im 24 and have been with my husband for 3 years now. During my childhood i was happy and active girl but one moment when i was about 16 i started to feel that im ugly and fat and no one likes me as a girlfriend (because some people told me this and i believed them). After highschool i became very shy and didnt go out, i had few friends to be with but overall i was all the time alone because i felt so insecure. I didnt go partying or going out with guys. i was just all the time after university at home.
When i was 21 i met with my first and only boyfriend who i really love (through internet), i have been in love before also but that was different. He had had many girlfriends before me and had lots of fun too but for me he was really first.Everything was great for 2 years- we got married and live happily but i start to feel worse. I feel im so old and best times of my life are over. I feel i totally missed important part of my life (16-22), this time when others went out with boys, went to parties, just did everything they like, overall enjoyed being young. I never did that.
My husband knows about that and says we can do all these things together now but i dont want to do it with him (we go out sometimes and he really tries his best but thats not making me feel good).Like i said i feel im far too old for these things now. I wish i could feel again 17 and feel good and do these things without him. I definitely dont want to leave him and i dont need to flirt with other men. Is hard to describe what i want but i know i have to do something. Its really destroying my life.