I just wanted to share my most recent experiance with everyone. Last year I was on citalopram for my depression, suicidal desires and SI. And they worked for me. I had no side effects that I was aware of, and after a two week period my moods had started regualting themselves, and I found life easier to deal with. Around May this year, I hit some financial difficulties. Not huge ones, but (I had moved from the UK to Canada) the meds are much more expensive here than they are in England. Anyway, I was feeling pretty good, (Had been about 5 - 6 months) and so decided to come off them. Even though people in the know warned me not to, I figured that if I got depressed again, I'd just get back onto them.
Low and Behold, three months later I start to feel all kinds of anxious! I'd wake up feeling seconds away from a panic attack. It turns out that this was a result of a) not staying on the meds long enough and b) coming off them too quickly. My depression (which I had started feeling underneath the anxiety) had manifested into an anxiety disorder... I forget the name, perhaps pst or something. I knew that coming off so quickly would have reprocussions, obviously i rationalized it to myself, but to have it manifest in something else. That was new to me. I wasn't even on the look out for it.
Anyway, Im back on the meds now, and things are back to normal. (normal-ish - It's still taking some time, and my moods are swinging slightly).