Struggling with The Child Within

[Hermes]

And I think it is counterproductive, perhaps even dangerous, to repress stuff from the past, because it will, like a pressure cooker, blow its lid and cause damage when maybe least expected.

Hermes

 

[forgetmenot]

Re: The Child Within

Jazzey i went to my psychologist today mm i know i am not in a good place I need to accept that i keep saying i am okay but no i have to make choices.

You asked my about the medication i was afraid to respond When i made decision to leave i stopped all my medication pain meds stomach meds and yes cipralex as well.

I wanted to leave with me being me. I decide with help of my psychologist to try again so tonight i restarted my meds all of them in hope i guess for some relief of physical pain as well as psychological pain. If i am to stay here i need help and i guess the medication will numb the sadness I find it hard as you know to do this but i am going to try again because i will need stabilty when my daughter comes home. She phoned and said she is coming home feb 4. I phoned and let the professionals know this is not a good idea as i do not feel safe for her or me but they will do what they do.

1. I am on my medication took it just now
2. booked follow up appointment in 1 week not 2
3 took insurance paper to daughter doctor to get filled so we don't have to pay for her hospital stay cross fingers
4. finally got down and helped my mom and brothers out
5 took my sister out

I have a conferance call at 11am tomorrow with social worker from Homewood re my daughter Please pray i keep stable be the professional and somehow convince them to continue to help her because if she comes home i don't know if i am going to continue to heal. take care.

 

[Jazzey]

I'm really proud for you, Violet. The medications have really helped me...it removes the ache in my heart. It's not about 'numbing' per se. It's more about giving us sufficient stability to deal with harder issues, Violet. :hug::hug:..

I'm really happy that you've started on the medications again. It's amazing at times when I think of the differences I feel when I'm taking the medications seriously versus when I'm not. And I have weekly appointments with my therapist. I don't know how long I'll need these. But, for me at least, it's meant a world of difference.

:2thumbs: Keep doing the right thing, Violet.

 

[forgetmenot]

i increased my meds as suggested by GP the sadness is not as bad still there but more tolerable. I find i have just a flatness to me now just tired i hope in time this lifts as well. I want to do whats right for her i hope in trying again all will be well It will work out this time it will.