Cat Dancer
MVP
I know I've talked about some of this before, but I think I need to again. My therapist keeps telling me I can control and change my thoughts. He tells me certain self-destructive behaviors are my choice and I can control them. Logically it makes sense. Emotionally I just don't want to accept these things.
Could it be that I want to remain sick and helpless for some reason? Because it's what I know? Am I not wanting to get better?
I am just struggling and struggling with these ideas.
Are my thoughts totally in my control? Am I missing the whole concept of therapy by not wanting to accept this?
There has to be some reason that I'm just blocked on this.![Frown :( :(](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
Could it be that I want to remain sick and helpless for some reason? Because it's what I know? Am I not wanting to get better?
I am just struggling and struggling with these ideas.
Are my thoughts totally in my control? Am I missing the whole concept of therapy by not wanting to accept this?
There has to be some reason that I'm just blocked on this.