I recently quit pot and am trying to improve myself through proper medication and therapy. Sometimes though, I think back to what is was like when I would use pot and it seemed so much better than now. Everything was more interesting and I would be so much more motivated. There was the negative as well but I seem to forget about the negative. I didn't even mind work because I knew I would go home and smoke. I am kinda struggling with it now, not that I am going to go and use but having the thoughts. When am I going to start "not thinking" about it and loving everything like I did when I used??? Will I ever?? Is this something gradual?? Shouldn't I be extastic all the time on meds....I was always extremely motivated that has kinda gone. I would get great ideas for art and then go home and try it out. Now it's different. I will have to talk to my therapist about this.
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Personally, I can't work at a job very long that I didn't like. For recreation, maybe you would benefit from more socialization, another hobby, or just better forms of entertainment, like going to a music/rock/band concert or a movie with a friend?
Anyway, as you point out, memory is a tricky thing:
If you were, that could be considered a bad side effect
Of course, most people feel less than ecstatic most of the time, espeically between the hours of 9 to 5. Really? You were always extremely motivated? I've never been like that, even before I had depression. I remember joking with a friend in high school that if I had cancer, at least I wouldn't have to do my homework, and, in one study, over 50% of the graduate students at Berkeley have felt depressed enough at some point that they weren't able to function as well.
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I guess I meant, I was motivated when I would use pot. I wanted to be a better musician so I would practise a lot, or I would be a better artist so I would paint alot. I guess the pot helped my depression and hypomania (short term). I guess again I am only thinking about the positive cause the reason I wanted to quit was because I wasn;t getting anything done at the end...I would want to and as soon as I would use I would get lazy. I think I'm just complaining now...sorry
No reason to be sorry Boi...I think that by posting here and talking about the good and the bad about smoking pot and reasons for it, it helps to be able to see both sides instead of just the good.
I know that it can be difficult when all you can keep thinking about is the good parts of smoking pot but have you thought of making an actual list of the good reasons for going back as well as all the bad reasons and then when you are having these doubts then you can refer back to the list. It may help.
I am not saying that you shouldn't be posting here...maybe you want to even create the list on here if you want. Whatever you feel is going to help, remember that we are here for you.
I know that it can be difficult when all you can keep thinking about is the good parts of smoking pot but have you thought of making an actual list of the good reasons for going back as well as all the bad reasons and then when you are having these doubts then you can refer back to the list. It may help.
I am not saying that you shouldn't be posting here...maybe you want to even create the list on here if you want. Whatever you feel is going to help, remember that we are here for you.
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Even if you were complaining, I don't think there is anything wrong with that. Most medical reports start with words like "The patient complains of" or "chief complaint." If there weren't any complaints, there wouldn't be any need for therapsits or doctors.
My guess would be gradual, like most things in mental health.
Thanks Daniel, I guess I have to be patient
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