Ashley-Kate
MVP
hey ,
Well after all these post about needing help and well i decided i wanted to make a post about the highs of anorexia not to encourage people but to show them the cruelty of it's reality!
the power that the weight loss gives you disables you! you think it is just a little at the start you think you will stop but deep down the disease knows you won't! the more you lose the happier you get but the more depressed you get as well! the farther you go you think you will be happy but the perfect weight never comes but you convince yourself that the next kilo will be the right one just one more than you lose control you lose some more depression takes over cause you just can't reach the weight of happiness! this is the disease the whole weight loss part of it at least that is the deadly part, the part that you thought you could control!!! you think by losing the weight things will change, but you never change you are the same person but only depressed and out of control sad you are still lost! the thing is it is hard to not believe that once you are lighter, once you are thinner, things will be okay but that is not the truth. just try to convince yourself that instead of convincing your mind that the next pound will be the one that leads you to happiness
yours truly ashley
Well after all these post about needing help and well i decided i wanted to make a post about the highs of anorexia not to encourage people but to show them the cruelty of it's reality!
the power that the weight loss gives you disables you! you think it is just a little at the start you think you will stop but deep down the disease knows you won't! the more you lose the happier you get but the more depressed you get as well! the farther you go you think you will be happy but the perfect weight never comes but you convince yourself that the next kilo will be the right one just one more than you lose control you lose some more depression takes over cause you just can't reach the weight of happiness! this is the disease the whole weight loss part of it at least that is the deadly part, the part that you thought you could control!!! you think by losing the weight things will change, but you never change you are the same person but only depressed and out of control sad you are still lost! the thing is it is hard to not believe that once you are lighter, once you are thinner, things will be okay but that is not the truth. just try to convince yourself that instead of convincing your mind that the next pound will be the one that leads you to happiness
yours truly ashley