Hello all!
Does age and being thrown into a major life change make one question themselves, other people, family, and friends? I believe in epiphanies, more so now than when I was younger. Over the last year I began questionning my life; what I wanted, what I needed. I began to realize that not everything my husband wants is what I want. That I am nothing like my siblings. That I started to see 'through' family members and some friends; like their behaviours. They were always this way, but now I think about how they treat me or ignore me and it angers me. And moving to a new community so far away from everything that was familar to me, I've struggled with this move. I have a positive outlook and make the best of a difficult situation. I love my home, my animals, my property. I take the plunge and I put my vulnerable self out there in this new community in hopes of making friends, making connections; only to be a form of gossip and judegement. I socialize through my computer unfortunately, but I'm working on trying to meet others in my community. I've met 1 woman and invited her to my home. She's from Thailand and was a mail order bride (not called the same today). We had tea, we chatted, I asked her questions to get to know her. We only talked about her and the money she likes to spend. We are completely opposite. I'm 48 and I spent my married years making friends with people I had nothing in common with, just so I would make friends; you see we've moved 9 times in 29 years, so making friends was something I had to do often. I am a simple woman, it takes very little to make me happy. This I've learned in the last 2 1/2 years. I know what I want since questionning everything and everone. I want to make friends, I want to be assertive with my family, my husband's family and even my husband. But not at the expense of my own happiness and sanity.
So my questio is 'Does age and major live changes make you question everything and everyone?'
Thank you
Does age and being thrown into a major life change make one question themselves, other people, family, and friends? I believe in epiphanies, more so now than when I was younger. Over the last year I began questionning my life; what I wanted, what I needed. I began to realize that not everything my husband wants is what I want. That I am nothing like my siblings. That I started to see 'through' family members and some friends; like their behaviours. They were always this way, but now I think about how they treat me or ignore me and it angers me. And moving to a new community so far away from everything that was familar to me, I've struggled with this move. I have a positive outlook and make the best of a difficult situation. I love my home, my animals, my property. I take the plunge and I put my vulnerable self out there in this new community in hopes of making friends, making connections; only to be a form of gossip and judegement. I socialize through my computer unfortunately, but I'm working on trying to meet others in my community. I've met 1 woman and invited her to my home. She's from Thailand and was a mail order bride (not called the same today). We had tea, we chatted, I asked her questions to get to know her. We only talked about her and the money she likes to spend. We are completely opposite. I'm 48 and I spent my married years making friends with people I had nothing in common with, just so I would make friends; you see we've moved 9 times in 29 years, so making friends was something I had to do often. I am a simple woman, it takes very little to make me happy. This I've learned in the last 2 1/2 years. I know what I want since questionning everything and everone. I want to make friends, I want to be assertive with my family, my husband's family and even my husband. But not at the expense of my own happiness and sanity.
So my questio is 'Does age and major live changes make you question everything and everyone?'
Thank you