I was in Paris and Vienna for a couple of weeks of vacation. Visiting old friends, and finally taking a break from architecture.
As soon as I return I find my best friend with whom I am also romantically involved hanging out at my home. It was after dinner and we finally had a chance to be alone. It was fantastic, we had missed each other.
But then... I don't understand. It was before halloween and I get a call from my ex-b/f, and find out that he is town again. It's a long story, but we dated for years, and towards the end he developed some sort of very paranoid psychosis which he is still in denial about. To make things worse I received news that one of my studio friends died in car accident. And so, going to my current best friend for comfort, and safety from my past, I felt completely betrayed when he suggested we stop being romantically involved. Worst part was that his reasoning didn't have anything to do with our relationship, but was purely pragmatic.
Four weeks later, a great deal has been resolved, friendships have been restored, I am once again able to focus at work, and the ex-boyfriend seems to be less of a threat. However, huh... I still wonder? Am I insecure, as some people seem to believe, or did I have a right to freak out?
As soon as I return I find my best friend with whom I am also romantically involved hanging out at my home. It was after dinner and we finally had a chance to be alone. It was fantastic, we had missed each other.
But then... I don't understand. It was before halloween and I get a call from my ex-b/f, and find out that he is town again. It's a long story, but we dated for years, and towards the end he developed some sort of very paranoid psychosis which he is still in denial about. To make things worse I received news that one of my studio friends died in car accident. And so, going to my current best friend for comfort, and safety from my past, I felt completely betrayed when he suggested we stop being romantically involved. Worst part was that his reasoning didn't have anything to do with our relationship, but was purely pragmatic.
Four weeks later, a great deal has been resolved, friendships have been restored, I am once again able to focus at work, and the ex-boyfriend seems to be less of a threat. However, huh... I still wonder? Am I insecure, as some people seem to believe, or did I have a right to freak out?