I have been holding all this hate towards my mother and I dont exactly know why. Whenever she walks in the room it make me pissed off and upset. Today I was talking about it with amy and trying to figure out some reasons but I dont have any memories of before my father died so im not exactly positive. I have come up with a few things but not the major reason but I just thought of something that really upset's me. When I was about 8 or 9 I was argueing with my mother (I dont remember why) and I toofk a knife out of the kitchen draw and put it up to my heart and said I was going to kill my self and my mother said go ahead do it. She claimed afterwards that she knew I wouldnt do it but what if I did. What kind of mother would say something like that. Any normal mother would be worried and want to get there child help. Err this makes me so upset.