Ashley-Kate
MVP
Hello ,
I am back! I spent a bit of time on my own thinking things through trying to get my hand on my own life rather than let it fall between the cracks. I have anorexia, and bulimia we all know that it is no big revelation but i realised there is a difference in havign it then in being it.. And that was the key to getting better i had to see for myself that i was something else.
I have spent the last month at my moms at my brothers for a little while i spent a week with my fatehr to clear things up with him and here i am gradually going back home every other day i spend with my brother and his familly but i am starting the transition in living on my own. I decided i needed to do it gradually rather than just move on my own.
I have started to write, in my writting i actually try to avoid as much as possible talking about my eating disorder, it is more like talking about the emotionnal state i was in what was going through my mind what i needed from people what i wanted, it is basically an accumulation of things, but through the eyes of someone that has been there.
The do's and don'ts the things to look for, the manipulation the lies, the myths behind these disorders, the support, the realising you have a probleme the getting better. basicly a lot of info! I decided to do this because in a way it is in some way reconising the difficulties of everyone involved and while i struggled i didn'T realise how supportive my familly really was, i wanted to make this for myself but also to help others, in some way people may think i glorify the e-d at times, but others may think the opposite that i exagerate in my choice of words qualifying it as a killer, an enemy, a thing. In the end i put a chapiter on tips and ways to fight it, inspirationnal quotes and stuff to motivate someone to fight.
And i have a part on pro ana sites and society, not really blaming them but expressing my own opinion on it. I feel better i have been better for about a month and a half now i still purge sometimes, and i am not eating the max i need to yet i am workign on it, but in the last 2 months almost i have purged less than 5 times, and hardly restrict i am just slowly raising my calorie intake, i am proud of myself and i trully feel good about this i don't feel like i am doing it for anyone anymore .
i don't think i will be perfect one day e-d cured i believe that i will live in control!
yours trully ash
I am back! I spent a bit of time on my own thinking things through trying to get my hand on my own life rather than let it fall between the cracks. I have anorexia, and bulimia we all know that it is no big revelation but i realised there is a difference in havign it then in being it.. And that was the key to getting better i had to see for myself that i was something else.
I have spent the last month at my moms at my brothers for a little while i spent a week with my fatehr to clear things up with him and here i am gradually going back home every other day i spend with my brother and his familly but i am starting the transition in living on my own. I decided i needed to do it gradually rather than just move on my own.
I have started to write, in my writting i actually try to avoid as much as possible talking about my eating disorder, it is more like talking about the emotionnal state i was in what was going through my mind what i needed from people what i wanted, it is basically an accumulation of things, but through the eyes of someone that has been there.
The do's and don'ts the things to look for, the manipulation the lies, the myths behind these disorders, the support, the realising you have a probleme the getting better. basicly a lot of info! I decided to do this because in a way it is in some way reconising the difficulties of everyone involved and while i struggled i didn'T realise how supportive my familly really was, i wanted to make this for myself but also to help others, in some way people may think i glorify the e-d at times, but others may think the opposite that i exagerate in my choice of words qualifying it as a killer, an enemy, a thing. In the end i put a chapiter on tips and ways to fight it, inspirationnal quotes and stuff to motivate someone to fight.
And i have a part on pro ana sites and society, not really blaming them but expressing my own opinion on it. I feel better i have been better for about a month and a half now i still purge sometimes, and i am not eating the max i need to yet i am workign on it, but in the last 2 months almost i have purged less than 5 times, and hardly restrict i am just slowly raising my calorie intake, i am proud of myself and i trully feel good about this i don't feel like i am doing it for anyone anymore .
i don't think i will be perfect one day e-d cured i believe that i will live in control!
yours trully ash
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