Charity
MVP
What a coincidence... I was just trying to figure out where I wanted to post this, and this seems perfect.
I just walked in to my workplace, which is a hospital-- the same one where I receive my own care. I saw my doctor almost the moment I came in,and I yelled at him for leaving me in the lurch over the Christmas break. I had such a hard time over the holiday; I broke down completely last night and only my husband held me together. So I said to doc, "Are you back? As in, to stay for a while?" He started to play it off as a joke, because we always joke toegether, but I rudely cut him off mid-sentence with a loud, "I'M NOT SMILING." He just walked on into his office without saying much in reply. I'm SO mad at him, and at my other doc, the psychologist guy, for taking off on their holiday vacations... and I know I've no right to be. But I yelled at him, right in public.
I have an appointment to see him later at 4:30, after work, and I know I'm just starting off on the wrong foot by yelling at him this morning... but I just couldn't help it. I'd have hit him if I could.
I'm still not sure how I'm supposed to fake my way through this workday. If I make it without hitting anyone or crying out loud, it's a winner. If I fail, I'll probably lose my job and my reputation-- and then, my apartment, phone, LIFE, etc. It's just too hard.
Charity added 48 Minutes and 54 Seconds later...
So now I'm embarassed too. It sucks that the place where my doctors are has to be the place I have to come to work each day.
I called up to the dr office upstairs to ask them to give me a call if there are any cancellations or any other means of an appointment opening up earlier than 4:30-- I told her to please call me, and call me first, ahead of the stupid kid with the flu who'll get better on his own anyway. She gave a stunned little laugh and said okay... and I hung up the phone. I wouldn't care how I behaved if I didn't have to go in there all the time as a co-worker.
I'm getting nothing done. Nothing at all yet today. I know they have the capability to monitor internet usage and such here in the workplace, and I pray that this isn't the day they choose to look at mine and see that I've been here all day instead of working... I just can't think.
I just walked in to my workplace, which is a hospital-- the same one where I receive my own care. I saw my doctor almost the moment I came in,and I yelled at him for leaving me in the lurch over the Christmas break. I had such a hard time over the holiday; I broke down completely last night and only my husband held me together. So I said to doc, "Are you back? As in, to stay for a while?" He started to play it off as a joke, because we always joke toegether, but I rudely cut him off mid-sentence with a loud, "I'M NOT SMILING." He just walked on into his office without saying much in reply. I'm SO mad at him, and at my other doc, the psychologist guy, for taking off on their holiday vacations... and I know I've no right to be. But I yelled at him, right in public.
I have an appointment to see him later at 4:30, after work, and I know I'm just starting off on the wrong foot by yelling at him this morning... but I just couldn't help it. I'd have hit him if I could.
I'm still not sure how I'm supposed to fake my way through this workday. If I make it without hitting anyone or crying out loud, it's a winner. If I fail, I'll probably lose my job and my reputation-- and then, my apartment, phone, LIFE, etc. It's just too hard.
Charity added 48 Minutes and 54 Seconds later...
So now I'm embarassed too. It sucks that the place where my doctors are has to be the place I have to come to work each day.
I called up to the dr office upstairs to ask them to give me a call if there are any cancellations or any other means of an appointment opening up earlier than 4:30-- I told her to please call me, and call me first, ahead of the stupid kid with the flu who'll get better on his own anyway. She gave a stunned little laugh and said okay... and I hung up the phone. I wouldn't care how I behaved if I didn't have to go in there all the time as a co-worker.
I'm getting nothing done. Nothing at all yet today. I know they have the capability to monitor internet usage and such here in the workplace, and I pray that this isn't the day they choose to look at mine and see that I've been here all day instead of working... I just can't think.
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