Ashley-Kate
MVP
hey everyone ,
? Well my appointament has been reschedualed to this monday and there si no canceling.? i am not doing so good i have hada couple of relapses i have not seena nybody in like 5 weeks and they promissed to have a fallow-up every week they lied i have went form my bulimic behaviiors bakto anorexia and i am going crazy i rather be in anorexia but i know it is bad i? rejoyce of the scale when it tells me i lost but cry and depress when i gained i work out a biit t oo much and i am scared to death about my appointment no one understands that i am going crazy maybe this is me.. i am scared i look at my friends and if i think for a split second that on of them went down the stairs 1 time more than me at school i get jealous :x she burned more than me and i? tend to stop tak to her or try and stuff her with food remindin her that she has to eat while i falsly proclaim i already did i am mean i am obsessive i hate everyone that weighs less than me and i hate whoever tries to losse weight i am scared of myself i feel fat
? when i eat and not just a bit a lot i feel like i probably gained 20 lbs? and it scares me i look at myself threwe the miror every night and see nothing but fat? ?:-oi am scared cause ebveryone says i am thin but all i can see is aft i am going insane and it scraes me what to do...
yours trully ashley :-(
? Well my appointament has been reschedualed to this monday and there si no canceling.? i am not doing so good i have hada couple of relapses i have not seena nybody in like 5 weeks and they promissed to have a fallow-up every week they lied i have went form my bulimic behaviiors bakto anorexia and i am going crazy i rather be in anorexia but i know it is bad i? rejoyce of the scale when it tells me i lost but cry and depress when i gained i work out a biit t oo much and i am scared to death about my appointment no one understands that i am going crazy maybe this is me.. i am scared i look at my friends and if i think for a split second that on of them went down the stairs 1 time more than me at school i get jealous :x she burned more than me and i? tend to stop tak to her or try and stuff her with food remindin her that she has to eat while i falsly proclaim i already did i am mean i am obsessive i hate everyone that weighs less than me and i hate whoever tries to losse weight i am scared of myself i feel fat
yours trully ashley :-(